Tuesday, October 11, 2005

understand??know??

i cant understand, my finalz is tis week, she knows. i m havin a paper tml, she knows. then y does she insists on mi doin e housework?? so wat if i watch e last espisode of "Pride"? do e house have a recorder to record it down??would u go n buy the vcd 4 mi??no. dun think so.so wat if i have a afternoon nap??dont i get 2 rest??my brain cant take in 2 much, i know. do u??

i try xplainin it 2 u. do u listen??u rebutt everything i say, n say :good lah, wings harden liao lah, can fly liao. but do u try 2 understand mi?? u know mi have a paper 2dae, i say i ll b back after it ended. but do u know i have 2 subj to test on??u did even bother 2 ask. do u know it take abt 15 min e longest 2 wait for 965??n about e same length of time 2 wait 4 e bus home. u know dat. so stop askin mi 2 b back home earlier. coz i cant. even e mrt dun take 1 min to get mi from yishun 2 woodlands. so wat if i get 2 e bus stop early?if there z a crowd, there is still no confirm case dat i can get on it..

u use 2 compare my result. saying like : y is A always better than u de??if they can get tis mark, y dun u??nw, u didna even care when i try 2 prove myself.u always sae y i dun need 2 study 4 xam when it is nearin. nw im doin it, but do u care??ask mi 2 do housework. say dat z my duty. heck. then wat do i study 4??do better in my housework??i have a suggestion, y dun u let mi quit sko?dat way, i can stay at home n do ALL e work 4 u while u have e time 2 rest n 2 take care of e baby..

keep sayin dat i need 2 study 4 my future. i know dat nw. but do i do housework so i can b a better housewife??then y in e world a housewife need education 4?? u might as well let mi stay at home so i can HONE my skills, n will not throw ur face when i marry.

always usin my words 2 tok 2 mi.as if it is juz nth but words from a rebellion child, as if u r laughing at mi.. u give mi pressure when u dun allow mi 2 study 4 xam or short test. but do u change dat??i try 2 xplain 2 u how i feel on things, but do u take dat in mind??do u make it a point??

juz knowin when my "thing" came doesnt mean u understand mi. juz bearing mi in ur womb 4 mthz doesnt mean u understand my feelinz. it juz mean dat u r my mother n u know mi, not understand...

there z a diff....

Saturday, October 08, 2005

OK! kids~mi back liao..hehe ^^ i know..no need complain, mi no time no update.my fault, my fault, but realli iz buzi lor.mostly iz onli sat on9 onli mah. paiseh lah...

it iz like:if not workin, then iz in sko.if not in sko, then iz @ home studyin...rather sianz hor, but still, i muz b responsible lor.coz iz mi wan job de mah. also cant blame ppl. but workin i think kinda lighten e load 4 mi dad. coz nw iz mostly mi buy my "i waannn" thingie. he onli need 2 provide 4 mi basic thingie can liao. mi hp bill also mi pay de hor..[zi hao.prode of myself sia~]

2dae mood reaaaal bad sia. ask mi sis lah. go use my lip ice wif no permission..then hor, iz like i confront her lor,keep sayin not her.then when mom treaten her wif cane did she confess. like e trust no more liao lor. but how can help??still mi sis lor..haiZ..kinda pity her..

last time [dunno when lah] mi eng cher ask us 2 write a descritive para. i can say i m rather proud of minez:

the bubbling sound of the spring flowin through the creeks attracted me, prompting my legs to move towards it unconsiously. Scooping the crystal-clear water to my mouth, i drink it as if it is out of reach from me for hours. Indeed it is. Being lost in the bamboo forest is no small feat for mi, for i have been working here for years. But as i stunbled onto unfamiliar ground, my sense of direction and instinct which i relied on deserted me completely to be replaced by a sense of...fear? But i pay no heed to it as i take in the breathe-taking beauty of this land. As i turned around to leave this section , an unknown force propel me back into that mystery land, where the sweet music of the birds seem to be the loudest, where everything seemed to be...happy. Suddenly it occur to me,"have i stumbled onto the paradise which mother had spoken of for years?"

not bad right.haha~although i have written something else 2dae, but i think i better leave it 2 next time bah..^^ nitez~

Monday, August 08, 2005

finally!!

okok lah...mi back liao..happi??mi comin back 2 update. 4 UR GUYS...haha~ i noe lah...sorri abt not updatin 4 TT long...coz i also busy de mah..then even when i free, mi iz tired de lor..pls 4give mi

>.

bleach also out until 43 liao..haha~happi sia..nw iz onli waitin 4 comp 2 finish dl-ding lor..should b quite xcitin liao bah..then comic iz out until abt 18 or so liao lor..n the pace iz movin fast liao. inchigo iz waitin 4 the final stage le. happi 4 him~ think there z gonna b more fightin le bah..then yinghsuan say tt after they save tt gal hor, still got continue lor.. nw iz waitin 4 her 2 on9 n ask her 4 tt webbie..

also meet a new frean. he give mi e impression tt he can b e kind tt iz loyal 2 a freanz. but xh sae he beri scary lor...then kor also no like him...my instinct sae he can b trusted, but not sure also..better listen 2 their words bah..better b more careful..[although sc has a BERI good impressionz...haha~ ]but tt guy make a mistake bah...im onli interested in e company ppl offer...if i dun have my freanz 1, i seek out otherz..tt z mi bah...or human?? every1 iz afraid of being lonely bah..

also change no liao..any1 wanted 2 noe, juz ask mi bah..if i feel like tellin u, i ll do tt..haha~jkjk.. :P

thankz shikin!! i love those advice..quite kool. but i neo de lah...also n0o worri guyz, ill concentrate on my study de..if i can pass..lol

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

long time no update liao...coz iz either lazy or dun feel like lor...
then also got work...go home so tired juz went 2 sleep straight away... T.T

most of the female working there iz chio bu lor...dun look at mi....mi xcluded.. haha~
i work morning de. so mostly is auntie. but all veri nice de. nv scold. u do wrong, they juz tell u n xpect u 2 rmb straight away.quite nice de. ^^
but working there let mi arrange mine time table. 4 xample:co n mac. bio de hw also not done yet. opz... XP

playing TS on9 le. hehe~ quiet nice de. also hard 2 level up... T.T but kool lor. let mi choose wat element i want 2 b. (^^;) love tt game 4 nw~hehe~

update next time bah...i go play game liao~

Sunday, May 22, 2005

bone tired sia~doing fries all day. also beri heavy lor. now hand iz tired n swollen...but worth it lah. at least i learn sumthing 2dae. the ppl there also beri nice lor. think iz confirm mi working there liao... ^^

thank you!!! thankz 4 helping mi c 2 the guitar. hehe...thank you derrick~2dae iz public holidae lor. thank you 4 taking the time out.. =) but dad power lor, spoilt liao also can glue back. haha~

suddenly iz like mind blank...lol...dunno wat 2 write. stupid sia...
oh ya, my taggie beri lonely de leh... ppl hu r reading tis can like write in de lor. or even make it in sumthing like a chat room. like gather there 2 chat abt thingz de lor. dun worri lah, i dun mind de...

updating next time~

Monday, May 16, 2005

yohoo~xam finish liao. haha~ finally. hope all those mugging have pay off. but i do noe tt my both mine math iz gone case liao... >.<

2dae go cozway. firstly 2 pay the net bill. then 2 return library. sae suzhen there. like...canna blieved itz her lor. coz look...kinda diff. more prettier. lazy 2 go on sat again. but still, stupid mi. i go return 2 book n borrow 2 other book... stupid mi... 8-)
then finally! go buy the comic series de "howl z moving castle"!!! yeah!! finally!!! hahha~cost abt...44. but hey, full color. n i even get 2 c howl. so hehe~happi...lalala~ also saw suzhen again. think she iz searching 4 her mom or aunt bah. it z like...her hair silken straight lor. unblievable. bery beautiful hair. envy sia~
2dae at comic like very...bore. not much ppl. they like got nth 2 do de lor...slack...but i leave early 2dae. coz mom got ask mi 2 buy snack 4 her. as delicacies in the afternoon. from the bankawang solo [think spelling mistake...] if not, i kena scold again lor. like last time... :P
search 4 kor kor de present. think i ve found it. now iz the prob of mi finding a job n earning enough $$ 2 buy it. hope i have enough time.
like...mac haven call mi yet. haiz~ thinking...no hope liao... like...kfc n delifrance have 2 sign contract de lor... risky, so dun want. now iz like, give out flyer lor. but dunno if got place or not. if not, realli no choice liao...

updating next time...

Friday, May 06, 2005

MAYDAY:
wat 2 do when ur mom didna cook ur lunch. MAKE HARD-BOILED EGG!!! tips:put salt in the water FIRST b4 boiling it. this enable the shell 2 b easily peel off. put the egg in TOGETHER wif the water when boiling. not when after the water iz boil or in the middle of the boiling process [unless u want 2 make the egg not realli cook lor.] if it realli turn out 2 b soft, no fear. juz put everything onto a piece of bread. add sum sauce if u desire. tt z all 4 2dae....

haha~tt z wat i do lor...but still, the feeling of satisfaction...wow~nice. dun worri lah, egg still edible. mom also got heat up the yellow[red??] bean. so i juz stuff inside the bread lor. bread iz 2 piece de lah...everything cramp in the middle.

xam nearing liao. study sum onli. should sae got no move or mood 2 study bah. will study de lah. juz tt...soon...hehe~ lazy~haha...2dae iz chi de. not bad. the fill in the blank tt part onli got abt 4 wrong. think iz 4 bah. other word z i noe iz i tyco rmb de...hehe~the benefit of giving ppl spelling b4 the xam:u also learn while giving. ;)

he sae to give mi time. so we r nw like freanz. ask kor le. he sae it z like a break up tt iz not a break up. should sae tt i m foolish bah. wasting his time. sorri...

2morrow going library wif siao chi. any1 wanna go along?? contact mi~

Monday, May 02, 2005

the dae b4 yesterdae cut new hairstyle!! 2morrow got eng paper!! i hate mine hairstyle!!
lol...

:'( the fringe beri short... but bhide look cute when tied up lor. can look bhide, canna look in front... it z onli after cutting tt i realise mine face look big. n iz ROUND. :'( no face 2 look at ppl liao...

2morrow iz eng midyr paper liao. wat 2 study?? eng leh... but can study 4 otherz... which i haven even done yet. haha~mi gone case liao... got distraction bah. from the comp, the tv, comic, eng novel, n lastly, MI! lol. juz canna concentrate enough. haha~ i noe, big trouble...

sumtimez i hurt ppl unknowingly de. so if i hurt any1 out there, pls feel free 2 tell mi wat i did wrong. coz i dun want 2 b hatred by sum1. hate the feeling of being hate by sum1 bah... coz if we r freanz, then there should b no reason 4 hating mi. if we r not, then it z rather stupid 4 having tt emotion against mi, isnt it?

the clothes in mine cabinet iz on the brink 2 collapsing AGAIN. [ i use correct? the brink?] have 2 arrange it sumdae AGAIN. always happen 2 mi. mi 2 lazy 2 put everything in place, so kinda stack everything up. nw 2 much clothes. door canna close liao lor.have 2 c when got mood...then can tidy up. if not, juz c when dad open the door n let everything drop out again bah...haha~

update next time...

Saturday, April 30, 2005

long time liao...

it z been long since i last update. juz feel....no mood 2 update bah. or mayb juz scare tt uploading will slow mi down. [from dl-ding...] but now, since i beri bore n nth much 2 do, so i decided 2 update. [ppl has also been complaining...]

syf come n pass. unxpectly, we got silver. how unfair iz tt?? i noe, not every sch deserve tt. but still, the principal believed in us. the cher blieved in us. even ben chee blieved in us. even edward [old senior] even sae we have improved a lot. mayb, we not gd enough bah. mayb the jugde got prob bah. mayb stardard raise le bah... haiz~ but no matter wat, the result we get iz the result we have. canna change liao... until 2 yr later...
no matter wat, we have decided we r going 2 have a concert next yr!!! wow~ at SCH. hu interested?? haha~ but i realli realli hope we can do it lor... but nw i have 2 wonder:will any1 come?? [shudder....] realli hope will have a lot of ppl lor. if not, like whole aico playing, n onli 1 to 2 ppl below. funny sia... even ppl from iz guaduating iz also coming back 2 help us!! it juz show how much we love our co bah. haha~

got hp liao~ i have 2 say thank you 2 derrick. "a beri big thank you 4 giving tt 2 mi. i cant realli say how much it mean 2 mi. thankz~ n also 4 helping mi pray 4 the rain. although it doesnt work, i realli appreciate the thoughtz."
2 mom: "thankz 4 giving mi the money so i can purchase the card n use the phone. dad was beri unwilling, n u came 2 my reasue. thankz~"

mayb i juz paranioa bah... but i juz feel tt i dun like him as much as he like mi bah. dunno leh..mayb it juz mi thinking 2 much bah. but i m beri sure tt i like him. but the intensity iz not tt high bah. haiz~ [wat am i thinking abt when i m typing tis?? lol...]
y am i thinking all tis nw?? lol, mid yr coming le lor. n i have onli started on a LITTLE bit of pysics. lucky i m not in e1 or e2 lor. think they muz been feeling a lot of pressure nw. hmmm.. let mi c, next week iz onli eng n chi. then next next week iz the "actual" 1. but after tis, can rest liao. finally...

let mi c...on thurs, i go 2 the mac near my house. mom sae they r hiring ppl. so i decided 2 go n give it a try. they sae they ll call mi. i think....no hope le. haha... but siao chi sae they ll decide 2 review mi 1st de lor. so chance iz 50%. [she even cal mi toopid. lol]

samuel ask mi go library de. but i was thinking...want 2 b alone bah. so i didna reply him lor. but still, 2dae i muz go de lor. bookz have 2 return by today liao lor. if not, kena fine. not gd...but nw iz dunno wat time. afternoon, afterward or at night?? hmm...c mood 1st bah...haha~

update next time bah. dunno wat 2 write liao...

Sunday, April 10, 2005

like... haven been on9 4 daez le bah...
been rather buzi. fri got fund raising, so thurs n wed has been helping out wif baking cookies.
n on fri... think iz mei mei using bah. tt z y i not on.
then on sat... let mi c... mi got go library, so onli return at night. [go buy mei mei de present.her z
on 11th april. so go buy 1st lor.]
but still, ya. finally, haven check mail 4 long time liao...haha

on sat, mi go comic there 2 but the mag. lucky still have, or else hard 2 find liao. also decided 2 buy... "fullmetal achemist". [actually, buy book 2 liao. book 1 comic there they dun have, so nw waiting] it was there when i chance upon the book full of color pic on "hikaru no go". i was like STUN. but...cost abt $70. haiz... so i "ask" derrick 4 it... nw, i m feeling guilty. he got give, but it z like... a lot lor. so i decided 2 return him the money when i have enough.

fri de fund raising hor. iz a SUCCESS. haha. thankz 2 the cookie. hehe -.-""
but still, we manage 2 sell off everything. xcept the drink. like no1 want 2 buy it de..
but still, realli hope we sec 4 no need 2 do tis le. realli hope not...

also dunno wat else le. keep 4getting...
next time bah...

Sunday, April 03, 2005

went out dae 2 parco bugis junction. went 2 buy peiwen z present. her z 2dae mah... also hazel onez. on april fool iz trace n peipei jie jie de. wish tracie liao, but haven seen jie jie on9 leh...
next time then wish bah...
went big round around the place. coz dunno wat 2 buy. dunno wat she like. not tt cloze bah.
but got buy ear ringz n winnie de pooh 4 her in the end. then they sae hungry lor, so go eat sumthing...
they wanna ask siao chi come de. but she sae lotta hw, so she dun come lor. then xh call sam de, but he nv pick up or reply de message... so give up lor....

xh n jas sae he z been like veri dark... hope he b ok bah...
dez can also b like tt de, but mayb...they all hide it bah...
haiz...

been wanting 2 pierce another earhole. influence by venessa bah. hehe~ but also been thinking abt it le. also not sure leh... but xh also wanna do lor. but she sae after syf then sae. wait bah...
it z not tt long liao.. but kinda x lor. $4 for 1 ear leh... but think...should b worth it bah...
anyway, c 1st...

2dae got buy tt "full mental achemist" de chain. quite nice. put it on bag liao. dunno if look nice or not... m also thinking of buying the comic series. think nw iz out until book 2 bah.
think onli lah. but mi buying it iz a beri big chance... haha...

update next time...

Saturday, April 02, 2005

haiz... mom wantz mi 2 accompany her n clean ppl z house. [1 of her freanz de...]
so, onli on comp at bat 4.30 sumthing...
comp n the net keep hanging, didna dl much of the anime. [not happi....]
also not much ppl on in the afternoon. [not happi sum more...]

derrick iz SICK!! 1st time i heard tt. so he no work 2dae lor. hope he get well soon bah...

next week wed got speech dae [??] rehearsal. will b missing the a math remedial. yeah!!! haha.
tt remedial onli do test onli lor... but it z kinda like revision 4 1st term lor. iz gd thing bah...

juz keep 4getting wat i want 2 update leh...
aiya, next time lah...

"dear,missing u..."

Friday, April 01, 2005

bua song...

canna log in 2 messenger... haiz...
juz let mei mei use 4 like...2 hrz or more??
she can log in but i cant, comp against mi izzit??

angry at her. she actually go n search mine cupboard 4 the disk. nv die b4 izzit?? i sae she has no wrong, she sae: no have ur name, so share de lor. kaoz~ her future bf also no have her name, wanna share??
also ask her where 2 hang the clothes [bamboo or clothe-hanger] she sae : mom nv sae. crap sia... she nv take the clothes down, so i ask her 2 fold the dry onez. wat she do?? GO 2 BED N SLEEP!!!! actually CRY. how weak sia... n wat she do 2nite?? NTH. xcept GO ON9. n wat she does 2 mi?? MAKE MI UNABLE 2 TOK 2 MINE FREANZ. anything wrong wif tt?? OF COZ, U NOE HOW MANI PPL SHE HAS ON9??? LESS THAN 10!! n mi??? I CANNA EVEN ON.

stupid principal. tt z the LAMEST joke i ve ever hear. it z not even worth laughing at. n the new tie 4 the sec 1, it like...the UGLIEST 1 i ve ever seen. our uniform SUX. the tie SUX. wonder if our sch iz realli old fasioned?? or tt lacking of creative?? n wat the heck man. the sch got $$. wat they spend it on?? ugly n useless tie, n sum dunno wat stupid poster. those $$ can b use 2 repair tables or chairs. or even save 4 sum rainy daez... they spend enough $$ le lor. on recoloring the courtyard n bball court. 4 wat?? show izzit?? color fade, fade lah. as long ppl can play on it, they happi liao lor.

haiz~ getting more bua song as i "tok"...
updating next time bah...

Thursday, March 31, 2005

yesterdae wanted 2 write de, but logging in got problem so decide, 2morrow bah. so here i am. toking abt wat z happening lately. [those i can remember...]

been 2 shikin [correct spelling hor??] z blog. beri de nice. man, the best man. theme iz fushigi yugi bah. haven seen it in long time liao. last time trace lent mi. but it z like...3 yrz ago??
i like chichiri n the guy hu use tt fire power. beri funni character. chichiri iz sum1 hu has a
scar-ed past. sum1 hu actz happi even when he z not. her blog got lotta nice nice pic. beri de cute. all of them. juz like her... hehe...

lately dunno y, but leg ache. think tt part iz call calf bah?? dad sae iz coz muscle pain. n ask mi 2 apply med. myself...lol. later bah. if i remember...

the sch manage 2 book SCH AGAIN!! hmmm...on the 18th of april. sch pro sia. dunno how they did it de. coz they think we didna do well last time, so sumhow, the cher book it. hope tt we will use tis final chance well bah...

kena a math remedial. xpected de lor. fail it...
toking abt a math.. where i put mine xam paperz de arh?? i remember putting bside the comp wif riverside de a math paper. dunno where mom keep it. try 2 find it bah...

oh ya, the movie i m toking abt iz "house of fury". dad sumhow borrow the pirated version from his freanz. haven watch yet. on sat bah?
bleach also haven dl... lol, wonder wat z up wif mi lately...
sat again bah... afternoon?? think so...

updating next time...

Monday, March 28, 2005

no hw!!

2dae no hw!!! yeah!!! but still, i still go on9. haha... habit le bah. but sumtimez also dunno wat 2 do when the comp iz on...
nth much 2 do xcept playing solitair n chatting wif ppl. sumtimez the web comic iz not ready yet, so have 2 wait...

sumtimez mi n mine kor tok nonsense bah. have not been seeing him around 4 the past few recess. wonder wat z going on...hu z care??
remember last tok wif him was abt....[thinking...] hmmm...on the phone lah...sumthing dark...
so dark tt i even started 2 feel myself engulfing again. think 2 far liao...
start 2 think wat iz life bah. thinking y we here, thinking wat the use iz living when u die 1 dae n ppl 4get u.
those kindz of dark 1...
since young, i ve always wanted a kor kor bah. sum1 2 play wif, sum1 2 share stuffz wif, n sum1 to "fan". tt z y i ask ppl 2 b 1. juz kinda like a subst. it z not juz a name [4 sum it iz...]. but i kinda have a rule lor. if mine kor hor, canna jio mi de hor...
[he ask mi b4 mah, but i m sticking 2 my rule...]
but then tt, mi kinda stick 2 him 1 de lor. if not, i stick 2 xh 1 de. closer 2 xh bah...

they all sae jas z story nice. but dun think i got time 2 read it bah...
coz hor, bleach i haven even dl lor...
haiz...will they b making bleach liscensed soon?? realli realli hope not. let us jope 2gether bah...

2dae lost a bet 2 sufeng. over the rain. haha...
mi bet it ll rain. [from morning until 2pm]
stupid dae...seem z abt 2 rain, but nv rain de... lol
no fun de...haha...

think i misplace modi 12 n the vampire galfreanz...
dunno where i put them leh. hope they come back bah...
mom sae b4: they will "come back" if they r meant 2 b urz..
derrick sae b4: they will turn up sooner or later de...[over missing drawing....]
so, mi iz being optimistic [correct spelling??],n hope it turn up bah...

keep 4getting 2 ask kengwei when z they compete. ask him later bah, if i remember...
yy z 1 iz 24 daez later, counting from yesterdae. [marsiling sec de...]
the cher z been under lotta pressure bah...think onli lah....
last fri z rehearsal at SCH iz not GD. it z so bad, it pale in comparision wif the tuesdae nite at camp de. at tt practise, it z like...the BEST. also dunno y... think...mayb we were enjoying ourself bah.. can c tt shaun veri de upset wif it...
hope, realli hope tt we can make it bah...

updating next time...

"dear~ u look beri shuai 2dae... ;) "

Sunday, March 27, 2005

fri...

fri...haiz...beri tired n late when i get back. abt...12 am sumthing liao, tt time.
think tt itz not up 2 standand bah. dunno leh... but think tt we can do better lor...
haiz...beri rush when we have 2 tidy up n come back 2 sch. so i juz kinda lost it when i find mine "song xiang" missing... find it liao...no worri.

yesterdae mom was away in malaysia. so dad take over at night. didi was asking permission 2 on the comp. but as xpected, dad refused. nth will change his mind lor. [can c tt. coz didi ask every once 1hr or so...lol] so miss 2 daez of chatting wif him...haiz...

2dae yuan chang z bdae!! want 2 write him a testimonial 1 de. but that part iz under repair or kinda stuff.so...2 bad...
know him 4 abt 1 yr ot less bah. beri mature as a person. also veri nice. hw...no need sae liao. think he ace in everything... but lately he z been in sum problem. hope he have solve those problem alreadi.

hw haven finished yet... hehehe ;) thinking...nth 2 do 2morrow morning lor, so do 2morrow lor...haha if not, realli sian leh... dun think got a lot bah.think...

got tt movie...hmmm.... "house of dagger". think so lah. directed by stephen hung. it z like soooo awesome. all tt fighting move. it z also seem z 2 b a nice movie leh. juz tt...i dunno wat it z story iz like. lol...
like...channel u or 8 hor, iz going 2 show the movie "volcano high" korean de. sec 1 didna watch movie tt much mah so did not watch lor. later, heard tt esther z sis got the vcd. but she either 4get abt it ot iz unwilling to lent it 2 mi. figure... so nw kinda xcited lor. but dunno the time 4 the telecast. have 2 wait bah..

nw channel 5 iz showing "volcano". i got watch b4. kinda kool. watching ppl helping each otherz, sacrifizing their livez 2 save other. not bad. wat z nicer iz juz watching the movie n chilling out. n wat z not nice iz...mei mei asking mi lotta qns. lol

updating next time bah...

Thursday, March 24, 2005

beri de tired 2dae. have 2 practised until abt 4.30pm. after break, watch the vcd on other schz performing. at abt 6.30, arranging how we r going 2 b seated 2morrow. during the rehearsal. being in sch at 6pm 2morrow on a public holidae... oh pls... n onli able 2 come back home at 10 or 11 sumthing?? can sum1 save mi?? haiz...
shaun actually 4get tt he iz going 2 listen 2 how i play. dunno if it z "lucky mi" or "kaoz...he 4get"
haha... but i xchange sest seat wif shelby le lor. coz her "tai feng" [stage wind] iz better than mine. so mun yeng ask us 2 change. hope tt she can handle it bah. i noe i cant. sitting outside...[shudderz....]

suddenly, i juz have a crazy idea: dun eat chocolate until syf z finish. haha... crazy right?? dun even noe wat i m thinking... but i m actually considering the idea!! think... haha... try bah...
c if any1 can tempt mi into taking 1 even 1 bite of theose stuffz... hehe...
dun even noe if i m strong enough or not. 2dae at 7-11, juz saw the "special dark" chocolate, canna tahan liao. haha~ still buy in the end.

dunno if 2morrow eating out or not. coz xh sae she wanna buy shoez. n confirm wif mi time 2morrow. if at 4pm, dun think mom got time 2 get dinner ready bah. if tt z the case, i ve 2 think of where 2 eat. n also:wat 2 eat...
but still, lately feelz like eating out. dun like the feeling at home. realli nth 2 do. sian 2 death arh... if i play comp in afternoon, then night canna play liao. if afternoon dun play, nth 2 do xcept sleep. n if i do tt, sure kena nagging 1 lor.

think tt bleach 24 iz out. [juz looking at amos nick then noe liao...he announcing it 2 whole world lor...] dunno when got time 2 dl. hope iz soon bah... wonder wat z happening 2 the character nw..
but still...have i watch bleach 23 yet?? hmm....[racking brain.....]no. nw have 2 dl 21,23 n 24.
21 not dl yet, but i go dl 22. mi crazy de lah...

updating next time....

"sorri dear...didi pestering 2 play game...so i didna get much chance 2 chat wif u...."

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

comicz!!

yeah!! go buy liao. but the series b4 ragnorak loki iz like...not up 2 standard. but the drawing style not mature yet bah...so loki dun look tt nice at all. a beri big letdown...
the ending 2 ragnorak loki iz like... [stun....] confuse sia...mi arh, mind gong diao liao.
dun realli noe wat z it z toking abt. xcept the end of the world, end of loki. lol
dun even noe y i buy it in the 1st place. haha~juz look cover nice then wanna buy liao. -.-"" haha
but magical teacher hor, can b sae not bad lor. thingz juz get all complicathing 4 mi nw. the galz all lookz the same 2 mi...most of them...
lol, wanna give mi bookz, onli give mi until 7. kaoz...nw i have 2 buy remaining. think...mayb not tt long bah. coz luv hina onli until 14 or 13 onli. so mayb lah...

think i m a little tan nw. armz a little darker than b4, but not much bah...
dunno when it fade. also dunno how i get tan in the 1st place. lol
think iz during co camp bah. coz mi playing in the courtyard mah. n during tt time, sun high up. so think got tan bah.
hair also long liao. but dunno when z mom bringing mi 2 cut. dunno if juz 2 trim or cut short until can juz tie like tt. hmmmm... c 1st bah...

juz nw got tok 2 bing jie. his voice sound juz like zhi hao kor kor. lol, but noe it z not him lor. not bad as a person. sound quite fun. he got ask mi go watch the eye 10. but since it z a scary movie, NO way...
can remember last time go watch "the park" wif xh, jas they all. it ended up wif mi crying b4 whole movie z over. they all sae not scary 1 lor. haiz...mi juz no guts 2 watch scary 1...
when toking wif bing jie hor, mei mei go n sign mi out... :'( lol, then he go off. haiz~ so didna get the chance 2 tok much wif him...

updating next time...

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

finally~

2dae finally got sum part of my new skin up. but dun think it z ok yet lor. so i ve begun xperimenting, n hope tt it ll continue 2 improve. ''V
been xperimenting 4 the past few daez, so haven been updating. until nw...

shaun wantz 2 listen 2 mi play the erhu on thurs. 2 c if i got improve yet. muz not let him down, muz practise on wed. MUZ!!
think i can do it?? haiz...think on wed, i ll be distracted by comic bah...
going 2 buy 3 2morrow leh... 3 leh... beri xcited nw[hehe~] lalala~

i nv run the 2.4 2dae. coz... i wanna walk bah... hehe~ walking wif him, happi sia. but dun realli noe wat 2 tok abt lor. haiz~ mi think i also scared 2 sae sumthing bah... it also happen 2 mi n xh b4. like in sec 1, but we kinda can over it. [also dunno how de...haha]

got lotta hw haven do yet. like...hmmm.... eng n chinese compo, geo wb, e math, bio de recipe.
tt z all. quite a lot hor. think i gonna finish by 2morrow morning at sch?? wanna bet??
hehe...
dun think i will... lol... haha

update next time bah...mi go do skin liao...

wanna sae,"juz like being by ur side... :) "

Sunday, March 20, 2005

sch start...

yesterdae been doing the skin, n mom iz nagging at mi 2 close de comp, so kinda shut down wifout updating...
juz wanna sae thankz 2 keng wei 4 helping mi wif the skin [though it seemz more worse than b4. haha~] but i think it still lack sum stuffz lor. like... iz the entry gonna b all in the 1 line?? isn t it gonna b messy when i put more entry in??hmmm...
oh ya, i gonna try 2 xperiment n c if i can put ur link properly... [mine entries bcome ur link.
-.-""]

yesterdae go library wif sam. lol. he power lor, hw almost finished liao. mi arh...still got de recipe during tt time. but think i finish le bah. think... also go visit derrick n ka jiao ah lun. hehe~ yesterdae juz noe tt terence quit. tt b*stard, ppl wanna do also canna, he actually go n quit... power... dunno how r him n his gf liao.
wow! ah lun iz great when he iz playing the piano. he can like compose up lor. let mi c...he got compose up Jay Chou de... "qi li xiang" not bad. simple but nice. tt z wat he perferred...

2dae morning kena wake up by dad. reason?? wash bike... lol. but i did get 2 ride it in the afternoon. hehe~ but mine skillz beri de lan. dunno how 2 brake yet, almost everytime hit sumthing. also meet a little boy boy there, hmm... he abt.... mei mei age bah. haiz...even offer 2 teach mi n look after mi like a teacher like tt. no face liao... have 2 b taught by sum1 younger than mi... but still, i like... neglect mine erhu. poor thing, bring home but can onli "sleep" there n do nth.
dunno if can survive 2morrow or not. worri leh... but think...should b ok de bah...

haiz...mi always ask ppl 2 sleep early 1 de. like yesterdae, i ask him 2 sleep early. but...i onli go 2 sleep at abt 1 sumthing. or even later... lol. iz tis call not "practising wat u preach"?? aiya, also dunno. but think iz bah...

2dae z hw onli left de recipe, but still dunno wat 2 do. think iz a lot of ppl do chicken rice. think...i m doing the same bah. haha~ hope cher dun mind... :P

updating next time...

juz wanna sae,"dear, muz jia you 4 the remaining hw u have hor... :) "

Friday, March 18, 2005

haiz~

juz nw recieve a phonecall. tt gal sae i "dun want face" n "smelly face". lol
haiz.... second time i receive liao...dunno if they do 4 fun or wat...
but tis time, i think tt gal noe mi de lor...
iz like, didi pick it up de lor... but i think she ask 4 mi...
haiz... realli hate it...
plus it z fridae, unlucky dae. bad thingz always happen 2 mi 2dae 1 de.
plus, he not on 2dae 1 also de lor...

2dae de whole erhu group kena kick out.haiz...
kinda let shaun n myself down...
it z like...haiz...actually cry over it...no use arh, mi...
but i noe i muz buck up liao. coz syf coming, n...i dun want 2 waste every1 n mine own effortz.
since we have come so far, let z carrying on walking bah...
i also dun want 2 drag the whole team down coz of mi...
jia you!!! haha...

ying hsuan actually quit lor. sae wat: he sae erhu got enough ppl de mah, wif 1 less, makes no diff..
it z like cher pick on them lor. coz they [yingyan n yinghsuan] reading comic...
he also got sae mi lah, but nv point out name. he sae sumthing like: muz listening properly, n not read comic n also sleep [*ahem* mi sleeping... or trying 2...]
coz i tis morning hor, have 2 wake up by mself leh... at 8am *yawnz* mom die die dun call mi up... -.-""
but it z also mine fault lah, coz the comic iz mine. oppz :X haha
tactics 1 to 5... hope they r all right nw...

updating next time...

wanna sae:"y u always fri not on de??? :'( "

Thursday, March 17, 2005

dark...

2dae, derrick got treat mi 2 chocolate!! hehe~ 2 bar leh...he nice sia...
he even save tt mag 4 mi when he noe tt i m not around or not seen around 4 daez lor...
sumtimez dunno wat i ll do wifout him 2 help mi save.
but still, i have 2 wonder y he still alone. he not bad looking, he got a nice personality he a his own personal character, but still, no1 confess they like him...hmmm.....
mayb, it z not his time 2 meet tt 1 yet bah... can onli hope him gd luck...

haiz... dunno wat the heck i m doing. digging up sumthing i should have let go... stupid sia..
think tt onli i would b tt stupid b do tt...hahaha....
i noe it all along, then y do i still do it??
but dunno wat i should call him... great??? wei da??? he give up on mi when he noe tt i like benjamin. but i think tt z wat i ll do too bah... i did noe tt i totally give up on benjamin when i noe he got a stead... i noe tt the chance 4 him 2 like mi iz slim...almost zero...
sumtimez i do stupid stuff. but tis iz the most stupidest 1 i have ever done...
wonder y i wanna get hurt... wonder y i wanna hurt him... haiz....
juz felt...darkness iz closing in again... but i have 2 wonder, will any1 pull mi up?? or i have 2 do it myself or sink even deeper?? feel like letting go sumtimez... haiz....

updating next time bah... totally no mood liao...

juz wanna sae,"thankz 4 trying 2 cheer mi up. :) "

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

back~

finally...
back from camp. not as tiring as i thought it 2 b, if not, how can i b here updating?? haha
it z kinda fun. well, i m playing frisby everydae hor. hehe. but mine throwing skill have not improved... T.T
but everydae got 2 practise lor... they want us 2 work harder coz they want gold... hope we can do it...

lol
kengwei teach mi how 2 link him. but i dun think i have done it right. heck, next time then ask him bah... tt thing seem z confusing lor... juz looking at all those dunno wat meaning de word can make mine brain xplode...

shaun got teach mi how 2 ride a bike. lucky he got enough strength 2 support the bike while i m trying 2 balance. but i think i have scream his ear off. lol i was like scareming all the time while trying 2 balance... lol but i can sae,"thankz shaun. 4 ur patience n williness 2 teach mi." hehe
been thinking of riding dad's bike in the afternoon de, but it turn out tt de tire not enough air. haiz~ next time lor...

meet ca in the bus 2dae. he like beri "dao" lor. c mi also nv even sae a simple "hello". kaoz...
wa laoz... thought we freanz lor. hao you ignore mi nvm. but him leh... lol, if mom remember correctly, then we kinda r like 2gether since kindergarden. xcept i ignore most of the time. also dunno y... but he kinda like mi b4, n i normally hide from these ppl 1 lor... haiz...

updating next time bah...

juz wanna sae, " haidi, thankz 4 accompanying mi home tis afternoon. :) "

Sunday, March 13, 2005

camp~

yesterdae originally have 2 date wif ca coz he wanna 2 return mi the a math paper. so at 3pm lor, library. in the end, he go 2 mine house 2 return mi... lol, make mi wait 4 abt 3hrz...
lucky also meet up wif siao chi n samuel or else i ll b more angry at home. nw it z onli disappointment bah...
also go buy bamdana [think got correct spelling??]. xh want same 1 as mine, but dunno wat she like, so went from shop 2 shop 2 search 4 1. found 1, but dunno if she like or not. hope she like lah...

ask samuel yesterdae abt wat i feel after toking 2 derrick. he sae tt it z bcoz i m in a new place, new environment, so i feel like back 2 normal after toking 2 sum1 back from mine past n sum1 i m familiar wif...

it z like i kinda have a fight wif sis lor. i wanted her 2 sweep the floor properly but she dun want. so it ended up mi shouting at her n treatening her. she juz stood there crying n keep saying she dun want. lol

it like no fair lor, riverside sec n woodlands ring sec hor, their sec 3 no have np camp leh... haiz...
y muz ai 1 de have??
lol, stupid holi. it z like no holi at all. so mani hw. hate it...
even have camp...haiz...after his camp iz mine. will b like mani dae z not toking lor...
no fun de...will be missing him...

tok wif panda boi liao. over msn. he got mine house no n i got his hp no. lol
over the friendster message, he reply sumthing from the bullentin.[the how much u noe abt mi thingie] he got sae sumthing like he like mi a little... lol, mayb as freanz bah...
haha, he noe i got stead liao de, no worri...

sumthing juz feel z tt wat z the use of living?? [sumthing will feel tis way de hor, tt z y sumtime mood will weird weird 1...] when u r dead, at most ppl will remember u 4 few weekz or mth[close family member] but ppl will 4get u in the long run de... then wat z the use of living...
sumtime i realli feel like letting the darkness 2 take over mi. sumtime i can longer feel ur sunlight reaching over. but i noe if i do tt, i ll b wasting ur time 2... so, i ll try mine best 2 fight the darkness... n win it no matter wat...

updating next time~

juz wanna sae:"tis week z gonna b the hardest week 4 mi coz ur not gonna b bside mi... b missing u... :) "

Thursday, March 10, 2005

2morrow~

omg...2morrow got performance, can die 1 arh...
have 2 wear co shirt. it z like blood red lor, but the design quite cute 1 de. [coz iz diana design 1 de mah...]
then i m gonna miss the last lesson coz they want us 2 b in co room by 10.30am.
lol, miss pw lesson onli. if want 2 miss hor, at least muz miss math or physics lor...
but if i miss the other z lesson, then i ll b spending less time wif him le. no fun le lor...

2morrow have 2 bring all the bookz home...
hand going 2 break le lah...wonder if i can bring it all home. thinking of throwing erhu in sch...[hehe]

lol, mi like beri stupid lor. u noe tt cross country run tt dae, i actually throw mine temper around after the run. n it z all bcoz of the stupid ice cream cone... lol
actually like scream at kor n sum stupid sec 1...
reason: kor = shouting at him coz the ice cream melting all over mine hand...[ouch~ sorri kor...]
sec 1 = a car wanna drive out n they like standing bhide the car, we have 2 like scream like mad 2 get them out... [dun pity them, pity the driver. dez also "scream" at us 2 get us away from the back of car...]
but i did noe tt i like beri "bua song". lucky i m the kind tt dun hold on 2 temper 4 long...

wow! bleach z theme song hor, asterisk by orange range iz like wow~. awesome sia... not bad. hehe. did manage 2 find it, haha, mi power sia...[-.-"" haha]

sumtime felt tt sumthingz missing in mine life, until i call derrick.
it was until then do i relised how long i haven been 2 comi le... kinda misses them...
derrick was actually wondering if i m dead. haha...
nw i onli noe how long we haven been in contact... after toking 2 him, feel z mine life back 2 track... wonder y z tt... aiya, dun wanna think liao...

also wanted 2 post sumthing else de, but kinda 4get abt it. lol

update next time...

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

tired...

feel z so tired after the run, but can hold on until i finished updating. [hehe..]
no bad la, tis time, at least better than sec 1 cross country. [last time i m abt 100 sumthing, nw iz 63. hahaha...] but still beri tiring. whole leg like canna support mi le lor, almost fall...

update next time... mom nagging...

Monday, March 07, 2005

stress~

omg!!!
fri got speech dae. gotta perform... ahhhh!!! stage fright... [stun..] scare i play wrongly leh...omg...lol juz thinking make mi nervous, then wat z going 2 happen on tt dae?? omg!! think 2 far le lah...[relax...] canna think....until tt dae...
2morrow also got run!!! arrgh!!!! at turf city!!! lol..wat if i kena lost???? wat if i miss tt bus???? ahhhh!! think 2 far liao.... scare le..... lol... sure die 1 lah....
next week got camp arh!!! lol, sleeping bag fight lost le lah...mei mei win.... :'( gonna sleep on the grass map AGAIN...then i m like thinking do wat on co camp arh??? got feeling tt it z training all daez...lol
then every practise from 2dae on, iz until 6.30pm... omg....can die liao... lucky xamz over liao...
or else....

those reason above r y i can die from pressure n stress xerted by myself... lol

i juz knew it, not gonna win tt match... lost by 10 [15:5] u sae leh?? i noe lah... our team not tt gd...lol... it z kinda true...

lol..juz 4get where i m thinking...
oh ya, dunno y was thinking abt shaun...
was thinking abt sumthing...then kinda link 2 him...
lol, mine comic still wif him...mth z liao leh..aiyo...
oh ya, remember liao...have 2 bring comic 2 sch 2morrow...
but juz nw he sae dun need...so... ok lor...
but still hope shaun remember bah...lol

updating next time...

Sunday, March 06, 2005

confuse...

"feel confuse...
realli confuse.
dunno wat 2 think anymore,
juz feel z like everything z not right,
feel like thing z has changes 4 mi...
dunno whether it z bcoz of tt incident.
mayb it was...
wonder y they all feel tis way...
mayb i should have listen 2 his advice,
n start blieving in wat he sae.
mayb...
but i noe i ll nv regret blocking him,
nv regret deleting him.
it z the least i could do 2 him...
wat i wanted iz his death,
he realli should not xsist,
polluting tis place,
n polltue mine mind wif all those tokz.
i realli should stop blieveing in ppl.... "

lol, tt "thing" above iz juz mi crapping bah... dunno how ur guy z feel, feel free 2 comment [if possible], if not juz tell it 2 mi face 2 face...


juz played "conquer", should sae tt game not bad bah... but almost kinda like "monster n mi"
almost, but think they iz the same company?? the big elefant wif flappy ear... aiya, dunno lah..think so onli...
easy 2 understand once u noe how 2 play lor, or if sum1 iz guiding u along...
kinda like "m&mi" iz tt iz killing monster de, n then lvl up...
wat diff. iz tt "m&mi" got background music... dunno if "conquer" got or not...
"m&mi" also can have pet 1 de... dunno if tis got or not...
but same iz tt both have guild, can married n can join team de...
not bad bah... but i haven play long enough 2 noe which 1 z better...

lol, stupid lor... march holi got camp, n like crush wif mei mei z 1...in the end, think i m not gonna get tt sleeping bag le...haiz... sleeping on the grass mat again. haiz... then it z like whole holi still got practise... siao arh... can die 1 lor...

2morrow got PE n tt frisby match... think iz against haidi z group...also not sure...but think so le lor... if it z true, dunno can win or not... [think not le bah. even if can, gonna by a beri slim chance...] lol

got watch the "howl's moving castle" on 2nd march. not bad, quite nice. then tt Howl hor, like beri shuai leh...hair style not bad...haha... but he kinda weird lor, got temper, then melt like dunno wat...every1 got a shock...haha... like turn into glue like tt...quite poor thing bah... n u noe wat?? he got temper coz his hair color change... -.-"" but tt movie iz like abt fighting, n blieving in love kinda movie lor... ending not bad [titanic...haha...]

updating next time...

juz wanna sae," haidi, thankz 4 guiding mi in tt game... :) "
lol, dun even noe y i m doing tis... i seem beri lame lor, got diaryland liao, then still do tis...
but tis 1 seem z nicer... haha, mayb bah....

tis new web comic seem z not bad : http://www.beastiahominis.com
ppl hu r reading tis should mayb check it out... nono, not should. iz MUST!! lol

yunli sae on fri tt haidi sae he feelz unwell...well, he did mentioned it, n nw thinking abt it, i feelz kinda insensitive...
i didn t even eat lunch wif him...haiz... i m such a failure...

dunno y...yesterdae juz went 2 sleep juz after dinner. n the time of mine dinner?? b4 7pm... so in the end, kinda get scolding from mom abt the housework n not getting her thingz from her freanz...
[i kinda get wake up from her scolding at 11pm...lol]

like beri stupid lor... whole march holi got practises... omg...whole week... can die arh.... haiz...

results also not gd, a math fail...haven told them yet...scare kena nag...or even worse, canning...

oh ya...the bear derrick give iz like soooo kawaii!!! haha...can t blieved he can remember...hehe...kinda like mi reminding him 1 leh... aiya, hu z care?? lol... also take neoprint wif him...but the background iz kinda like...can coz mi 2 get kill by haidi lor...
sorri haidi, we nv c tt thing properly, it z like onli white nth from our point of view...sorri...

updating next time...