been cryin e whole night thru'
it's not realli bcoz of like somethin bad happen,
it bcoz of e bookz i'm currently readin nw
{恋空}/Koizora.

while readin halfway thru, e tears juz suddenly flow down. n i've been cryin nonstop while i'm readin e endin.

i realli recommanded it, realli veri touchin (:_;)

wat i regret onli was dat i'm readin it alone last night..

hate dat aunty who cut my hair sia T.T
show her e pic from a mag, in e end, look nth like it lor..
seriously, it's like e back of my hair is like not cut lah..
still long lor..wheras e pic de iz abt a few inch shorter lah..
fuck up sia. n i pay a freakin $12 for it lah..damn, totally not worth lor..
not goin 2 go dere next time.
thinkin of goin 2 another place to get e back of my hair cut properly. if not, i think my whole head will look funny. it look funny nw already..

ramdom rantin

*
As I sat there in English class,
I stared at the girl next to me.She was
my so-called 'best friend'. I
stared at her long, silky hair. I
wished she were mine, but she didn't
notice me like that.And I knew it.

After class she walked up to me and
asked me for the notes she had missed
the day before, and I handed them to
her.She said 'thanks' and gave me a
kiss on the cheek. I wanted to
tell her. I wanted her to know that I
don't want to be just friends. I
love her, but I'm just too shy. And I
don't know why.

11th Grade...

The phone rang. It was her on the
other end. She was in tears, mumbling
on and on about how her love had
broke her heart.

She asked me to come over because she
didn't want to be alone, so I
did. As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes,
wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, a
Drew Barrymore movie,and three bags of
chips, she decided to go to sleep. She
looked at me,said 'thanks,' and gave
me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell
her. I want her to know that I don't
want to be just friends. I love her,
but I'm just too shy.And I don't know
why.

12th Grade...

The day before prom she walked to
my locker. 'My date is sick,' she
said. He's not going to go. Well,
I didn't have a date and in 7th grade
we made a promise that if neither
of us had dates we would go together
just as 'best friends,' so we
did.

Prom night, after everything was
over,I was standing at her front door
step. I stared at her. She smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal
eyes. I want her to be mine, but she
doesn't think of me like that,and I
know it. Then she said, 'I had
the best time,thanks!' and gave me a
kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't
want to be just friends. I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know
why...

Graduation Day...

A day passed. A week passed. A
month passed. Before I could blink, it
was graduation day. I watched as
her perfect body floated like an angel
up on stage to get her diploma. I
wanted her to be mine, but she didn't
notice me like that, and I knew
it. Before everyone went home, she came
to me in her smock and hat, and
she cried as I hugged her. Then, she
lifted her head from my shoulder
and said, 'You're my best friend,
thanks!' and gave me a kiss on
the cheek. I want to tell her. I want
her to know that I don't want to be
just friends. I love her, but I'm just
too shy. And I don't know why...

A Few Years Later...

Now, I sit in the pews of the
church. She is getting married,now. I
watched her say, 'I do' and drive
off to her new life, married to
another man. I wanted her to be
mine but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it. But before she
drove away, she came to me and
said, 'You came!' She said, 'thanks!'
and kissed me on the cheek.I want to
tell her. I want her to know that I
don't want to be just friends. I love
her, but I'm just too shy. And I
don't know why...

Funeral...

Years pass, and I looked down at
the coffin of the girl who used to be
my best friend.' At the service
they read a diary entry she had wrote
in her high school years. This is
what it read: I stare at him wishing he
were mine. But he doesn't notice
me like that, and I know it. I want to
tell him. I want him to know that
I don't want to be just friends. I
love him, but I'm just too shy, and I
don't know why. I wish he would
tell me he loved me...i wish I did
too...i thought to myself, and I
cried.
*

juz saw tis in friendster juz nw. felt dat it's beri true bah..regretin it juz coz u didna say it out. sound kinda juz like me. haha~
think could juz be a bit emotional nw bah >.<

until e next time~

xam comin!!!
*swoon*
haha~ is kinda sianz lor, like tis term beri rush like dat. onli abt 4-5 weeks onli sia..still a bit holi mood bah XP

oh ya oh ya, did i mention dat i went 4 e countdown at e esplanade dere?? it was damn cool lah..e crowd, being wif frenz, watchin e fireworks, 'escapin' after it's finish, etc, etc. lol XD although i dun realli like crowd, but i think i can understand y ppl would still go dispite it bah..hmmm...let mi guess arh..like endin a yr n startin a new 1 wif loved ones or even frens?? also dunno lah..or mayb juz go 4 fun >.<

lunar new yr also 'round e corner liao..thinkin will be workin all e way liao lor, after all, all my relatives iz in my lor. loong time nv go in liao, juz wanna go in n shop. haha~ shop at citysquare. lalala~
sianz lah, my cousin will be heldin her weddin on mi bdae. dunno whether i should be happi or not T.T but i rmb i was cursin when i know of it. *evil laughter*

wanna get lotta new things when i think abt it 2dae - backpack, pencil case, hairstyle..mayb even new clothes bah..afterall, new yr comin mah. hehe~ all those need money, n i've not enough of 'em. -.-""

'have u ever felt as if u dun belong here when i look around e room?'