disturbed sleep.
woke up a couple of time b4 i decided 2 rouse myself up.
couple of weird dreams,
but rmb tis clearly -> mi stabbin some1 in e heart.

Stab

To dream that you have been stabbed, signifies your struggle with power. You may be experiencing feelings of inadequacy and defensiveness. Alternatively, you may be feeling betrayed as the popular phrase goes, "being stabbed in the back".

To dream that you stab someone, indicates your fear of betrayal and your untrusting nature. You may be too much on the defensive

n no.
i'm not readin any book b4 i went 2 sleep last night.
noe i should be feelin..
disturbed??
but no.
juz a bit dun understand onli bah..
wateva *shrug*
juz a dream onli..

borrowed books by Neil Gaiman ytd at e library.
fascinatin writer/author ^^
juz readin thru his short stories,
haven started on those novels yet XP

in a few more hrz,
earth gonna rotate in2 e new yr.
lotta things happen.
things dat i've 4gotten,
things i prefer 2 4get,
things dat will always stays wif mi - no matter good or bad.
did hope dat i've mature tis yr.
haha~
think..
low chance XP
still here,
wif no clear goal in mind.
still e coward i noe i am
*sigh*
but whether i did mature or not,
is somethin i have 2 judge by myself bah..

gonna blast my music,
fin up e books,
n rot/enjoy somewhere later on.
i think..

was awaken up by e screamz of 坏人 o.O
a bit..
wat e fuck lah..
it's e worst sound ever 2 be awaken by
n not once.
totally lost count. *shake head*
e reasons she's screamin 4??
over e tv channel wif my bro.
cant believe it *frustrated*
n 2 think i actually cut short my comp-time last night when she moved 2 e livin room 2 sleep
*argh*
muz 忍!!
juz a few more nights,
i hope >.<
she doesnt use 2 be tis bad de lor..
but haiz..
think pamper until 无法无天了。。

went wif dear 2 see "Ip Man"
since we're students doin internetworkin,
bing quan pronounced it literally ytd.
LOL
damn funny de lor~
den zhi jie start wif all those ip range thingie..
n i think it's ming de or some1 else,
who tries 2 correct bing quan's pronounciation XP
but e movie's nice~
woohoo~
speakin of movies,
i cant believe i missed 'Sky Crawlers' *argh*
i noe i'm forgetful,
but until tis xtent??
n tryin 2 find a jpn anime movie on9 is like..
close 2 impossible.
so any1,
if u have any link or watsoeva,
i would appreciate e help ^^

items 2 get
- Dead after Dark (novel)
- around 3 comic (if i'm lucky)
- Dark-hunter companion
- Blackdagger brotherhood - insider guide
- Salvation in Death
- a purple tube
- Trick - Koda Kumi (i wanna get e 1 wif e dvd de!!)
juz lookin at e list above juz makes mi think..
is my life revolvin around books/novels??
more den half e list is books de lah!!
i can see e money flyin away b4 they even come in2 my pocket >.<
lalala~

was rereadin 'Devil may cry'
n Ash was talkin abt all those free will, love n fate de thingie.
damn interestin XP
thinkin of typin it up here,
but think,
might land myself in a lawsuit =X
hmmm..
it's juz from pg 250 on.
can go kino find n read =X
or juz get from mi
lalala~

didna get 2 hug u 2dea >.<
muz make it up another day hor~ =X

e rain plattered softly on e window pane as i check in on em.
sweet n innocent,
their faces told mi.
but it's not e case as they wake up -
playin havoc wif psychology of human,
poisonin e mind of ppl they come into contact wif.
mayb dat's e reason i love em.
mayb dat's e reason y i put up wif em.
they're straightforward.
no backstabbin,
no double crossing.
if they dun like you,
only 1 simple rule they abide by,
'Kill whoever that displeasure us.'

ramdom.
got mistake juz pt out hor..
(i noe got a lot >.<)

mayb it's juz mi,
but wow!!
rare 2 see 7 de lor..
or mayb i didna play enough..
hmmmm..
(it's e advance de - 99 bombs =P)
n ya,
i fin it by myself
hehe~

been busy e last few days bah..
went 4 MCO's concert on fri.
purely 2 support sis.
but hey,
they're alright.
(at least better den e SAJC de =X)
but improvement can still be make =)
but overall,
did enjoyed it ^^

was workin ytd.
damn tirin de lah!!
*complain, complain*
was walkin consecutively 4 almost 3 hrs,
from e escalator leadin up 2 raffles link,
to e bridge leadin 2 marina sq >.<
but think i saw a race car part in front of e convention center.
whoa~
wanna take pic de,
but since my phone de camera lousy,
还是算了吧。。

broke *sob*

broke

–adjective

4.	without money; penniless.

can onli wait till next mth le bah *sigh*
money juz cant since 2 get along wif mi,
always seemz 2 have shortage of cash around mi de T.T
but ok lah,
juz need 2 get a few books onli =X
not much XP

woohoo~
ice kacang!!
'(>.<)'

juz fin "Death Race"
all those blood n gore O.O
some is quick,
e others are like painful *ouch o.O*
especially e gal ridin wif 13K *ewwwww >.<* it's like totally disgustin >.< sleepin ="X">.<> nv bring food home at night.
unless it's meant 4 em O.o
e thing is dat they dun even show e same enthusiasm durin e occasion when i actually bring food back..
cant get em.
at all..

wanna get a pet when i grow up, (fishes n birds would be out of e qns..)
n hopefully get my own apartment.
but e thing is dat
since i cant even take care of myself,
how in e world can i take care of another living being??
juz some ramdom i think up of when i'm wonderin abt e future.
dun even noe whether i can live till den or not,
life's kinda unexpected in dat way..

choke on my food while eatin dinner juz nw.
cant believe my stupidity *eye rollin*
coz we'll laughter, (i'm laughin wif my mouth full of food..)
n i think e food get in2 e wrong direction
LOL
definitely not somethin i wanna experience again =P
lalala~

lisTenin - Enya (And Winter Came)
it's like sooooo not my genre =X
minesweeper craze!! *shriek*

noe you'll still be alright
but i juz cant help worry for u >.<
miss you lots *kiss*

"When y0u sTares int0 tHe abyss,
tHe aByss sTares bacK at y0u."
-Friedrich Nietzsche

1mth le!!
hehe~
ok lah..
1mth + 1hr XP
happi mah?? XD
haha~
coz i am~ ^^
went out watch wayang - "Yes man",
den jalan jalan at vivo ^^
movie damn funny de lah..
quite interestin also XP

receive dez's letter!!
it's makin mi miss her soooo much >.<
thank you.
dun think any word can desribe wat i'm feelin >.<
a bit tearin up le lah *pout*
thankz ^^

gotta fin watch e movie "Going by the book"
some korean comedy movie.
beri original n creative.
n all e ppl actin in e drama has good actin skills =P
intro, intro XP

wanna pretend ignorance also canna.
mom ask 2 bring em n teach em how 2 use e mrt.
a bit awkward-
1.we have nth 2 talk abt.
2.couple is behavin as a couple.
3.i'm not familiar with 表姐夫's relatives.
4.i dun talk much. at all. (i think)
still,
it's ok bah..
help in wateva way i can ^^

i wanna watch "Wolverine"!! >.<
see e trailer like damn cool seh~
but still a bit far off *sigh*
nvm!
i shall wait!! (no choice also lol)

got food back 4 my cousin.
but e by the time she came back,
will by cold like nobody's business lor..

finally see u le~
hehe~ >.<
been so long XD
lalala~
thankz soooooo much 4 e gift ^^
will always treasure it
dum dum dum dum~

lisTenin - Enrique Iglesias (Greatest Hits)
woohoo~
hot guy =X

until e next time~

misses ur hug
misses ur kisses
glad i can see u 2dae =X

cant believe it!!
i'm like awaken up by e pain in my wisdom tooth O.O
wat in e world lah..
so mani ways 2 wake up,
n tis has 2 be 1 of em??
*argh*
might be plannin 2 go back 2 sleep later,
since e pain is almost nonexistence.
need 2 catch up on my sleep!!
if not,
i've no idea how i'm gonna tahan workin >.<

so..
cyaz?? XP

2 days of not enough sleep n my system is like..
cmi le..
gettin old liao *sigh*
den nw gigi sakit >.<
omg..
stupid wisdom tooth T.T
been drinkin salt water n hope it will help,
thot pain is gone,
can still feel e swellin..
hope it's nth de >.<
things-to-do-today is like..
onli 1 thing done,
lalala~
guess..
might have 2 sleep a bit later 2night again *argh*

heard dat my cousins are comin tml,
n stayin for 1 night.
dunno whether 2 be happi abt it or not
but since i'll be workin tml,
juz treat as if i noe nth..
works for mi..
ignorant is bless (or pretendin to be)

still lookin for dat wallpaper,
but doubt i can find it le bah..
but seriously,
it's my fav among all.
mayb it's coz of e fact i cant have wat i wan??
haha~
mayb XP

find xmas song irritating
it's like,
so damn bloody cheerful.
n it's e same old every yr.
cant realli stand it >.<
thou i think it's good in a way in dat it's remaindin mi dat e yr is endin soon.
haha~

have another part time job 4 e holi.
street surveyor.
n i think i'm not gonna do it again.
hate interaction wif ppl!!!
*chantin*
wat goes around will comes around..
*chantin*
ya,
i'm chantin it while i'm doin my work *evil laughter*
but if i'm like doin countin den it's diff bah..
like..
i dunno..
lta type XP
dat i dun mind
lalala~

got a crazy idea for 31st dec.
afternoon go sentosa play vb,
den after dat,
stay on for countdown.
haha~
how abt it??
juz a thot XP

until e next time bah..
gotta go rush my stuffz liao~

went wif steph n sis to watch twilight ytd!!!
it was..
still ok..
e guy actin edward is like..
a bit no skill de >.<
he doesnt have e grace nor e face i thot edward might have..
so mani actors in e world n they have 2 choose him -.-
but hey,
i like jasper =X
he's cute~ >.<
lalala~

walk around cwp to wait 4 time 2 pass
(waitin 4 e weekday special at ichiban sushi XP)
food dere was ok..
thot not as good as e last time dat weekday special >.<
done a bit of catchin up wif steph,
not much but hopefully can see her soon again XP

get my sis to buy mi a shirt as my xmas gift
*evil laughter*
i also got her somethin hor..
so it's a fair xchange ^^
guess my bear have 2 wait le *sniff sniff*
gotten somethin 4 edwin.
dunno whether he'll like or not..
but seriously,
i've no idea wat 2 get him T.T
*sigh*
nw left wrappin of all those things i get.
get somethin else 2..
wanna get somethin special.
but...
totally no idea,
even if i have,
dere's no time!!
(i'm always a last min shopper XP)
hope..
he like it den i happi liao >.<

saw tis e other day

cute!! >.<

been..
ok,
not been..
doin my part on ipd.
juz dat,
not yet.
k??
mayb not week,
or sunday night.
guess i can onli get things done at night.
typically mi XP

gtg prepared wateva for work later on liao~
until e next time~

but night is also e time when i'm afraid of myself also..
e time when sometimes i fear for e lost of my sanity..

a yearnin 2 listen 2 LP.
n ya,
here i am.

06 Easier to Run - Linkin Park

"Easier To Run"

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change

[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

It's easier to run
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made)
It's easier to go
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)


distracted.
tears down my face n i have no idea y.
weak.

OMG!!
they went 2 ZoukOut O.O
e 'they' - r'jeep, vimal, mr black, n mayb more.
pic -> http://www.friendster.com/photos/42829675/1/158525800#pic=7191379101395174034
where all 3 of em are dere >.<
envy!!! >.<
haha~
still ok lah..
but sis says elleen says dat it's not worth it.
LOL

appointment fix.
like at 8.30am??
is can wake up lah..
but juz not around my area -.-
*sigh*
wateva..
juz need 2 get it check n over wif.
lalalala~

until e next time~
oh ya, holi officially start le!!
woohoo~

cheryl's seafood spagetti

dear dear de - think is some 炒饭。。

can see sheryl's bake rice in e background XP

sheryl n cheryl sharin e dracula drink.

n sheryl hoggin e drink. XP
jkjk ><

n tis 1 kinda xtra..
lol

anyway, congratulation Ali (guy in e pic),
on ur weddin 2dea~ ^^
it's in MY.
so i'm afraid i cant go.
plus,
i'm workin..
ya,
dat's mi in my pic.
think it's e angle e prob XP
lalala~

i have tis theory -
if e hair start 2 curve after takin off e cap.
it's time 2 go n trim liao.
was wonderin when i have 2 time or e money
>.<
n recently,
my tooth've been givin me grief T.T
e money's been flyin even b4 it reaches e wallet.
thinkin abt it,
it's actually been more den 1 yr since i've visited e dental.
(nw i go need 2 pay lah..)
gotta go n make an appointment soooon le~

n dat traitor of a bro is back.
cant believe it.
he nv bring back anythin 4 mi.
*argh*
onli let mi see some freakin brochure from genting
even e toys he get from MY de mac hor,
he's goin 2 give e other 1 to 坏人。
无心的家伙。。
白疼他十多年 *a bit piss*
jkjk,
but seriously,
a bit piss off ><

until e next time~

lisTenin - Linkin Park - Road To Revolution (Live At Milton Keynes)

CT's OVER!!
woohoo~
2day's de ok.
juz dat nv realli studied 4 it.
lalala~
i noe..
serve mi right..
but can still pass.
so ya,
wateva~

when IMM wif dear dear, sheryl n cheryl 2 eat.
suppose 2 have more ppl de..
oh well..
went 2 a place dat's like a bit class de..
4give mi if i 4get wat e place is call.
wanna see how our food looks like??
go sheryl or cheryl's blog 2 see if they did update it.
ya..
den went daiso.
it's like..
huge!! O.O
but somehow..
2night passes in a blur 4 mi.
a bit..
gone le..
i think.
haha~

n i'm wonderin y i'm still awake nw.
oh gosh..
need 2 wake up at 6 to be in time 4 work tml *panic*
okok,
go sleep liao..
nitez~

tml's e last paper!!
lol
n i'm still here typin away.
typically mi...

been drinkin a lifetime worth of choco milk (a bit exaggeration XP)
gettin a bit sick of it.
but thank god dat dere're choco flavor.
cant wait 2 get back 2 solid food again >.<

all alone at home
dad n sis workin.
mom not around (a good thing in tis case)
n i miss him
*sigh*
but tml's comin soon.
veri soon..

have 2 go fin my part of e chores.
den fin studyin.
b4 i can get my dinner (porridge - hate it but no choice right?? T.T)

den have 2 think of wat 2 get 4 edwin.
he already has prepared somethin 4 mi le.
guess i have 2 return e flavor..
realli dun like thinkin of wat 2 get 4 a present -.-
damn..

it's rainin here heavily.
wishes dat he's here beside mi right nw >.<

until e next time bah..
think e weather is makin mi a bit moody..

juz did it ytd.
dunno whether i'm crazy or not.
think i muz be.
but it'z juz dat i've been thinkin of gettin it done 4 a long time le..
juz dat i couldn't find an opportunity??
mayb >.< size="2">ps. think it's a relieve dat i didna do it myself, it's better not knowin how i look wif all those blood flowin down XP
n on hindsight, i choose e correct shirt - a black 1. haha~

one subj down.
think i could do alright.
nw onli left wif CSF,
but need lotta practise!!!
but should be ok bah..
lalala~

gtg le,
meetin em 4 revision.
until e next time~

punish mi bah..
no mood to memorize any thing.
none at all.
crap.
procrastination -.-

mayb juz take a nap see how bah.
think..
couldn't be of how use,
since 坏人 is at my house *sianzation*
as long she dun cry or throw a tantrum,
i'm thankin who's ever up there =X

feel like gettin a purple tube,
n orange shoelace.
LOL

CT rounds e corner!!
O.O
like..
FNS is tough de lor..
like bio like dat >.<
lotta memorizing work..
hope can make it *sigh*
juz hope e words will start makin sense 2 mi >.<

was sick on e weekend,
so was sleepin in,
tryin 2 let e body has e rest it wanted XP
but lao gong,
thank you,
4 accompany mi on sat =D

sometime..
juz got e feelin dat i dun belong 2 any places.
juz will get dat feelin when i'm workin sometimes,
or goin thru fren's blog
juz mi bah..
being irrational.
i guess.
but i do noe dat i will always have a place beside dear de =X
hehe~
lalala~

got r'jeep to help mi do le!!
woohoo~
but i dunno whether it's somethin 2 be happy abt or not ><
think could be after fns bah..
where i can go find him after e meetin.
n plus,
mom would be in my,
where it can heal without any disturbance
juz hope..
it does happen *oppz*
guess i have to get e 'instrument of pain' tml evenin le..

busy busy gal.
after sku,
go to kino to get e books i have ordered,
den chinatown 4 a job trainin,
den get e stuff (read above).
hopefully i'll stay awake thru e bus journey,
juz to get some chpt 1/2 thingie in2 my head bah..

feel like eatin ban mian >.<
damn.
mayb tml =P
hehe~

miss u seh >.<
lalala~

I SAW THIS!!!
OMG!!
O.O
Twilight - Collectors Edition
*swoon*
hope it's e 1 i'm lookin 4..
go under Editorial Reviews -> Amazon.Com Review.
it's juz somewhere dere~
juz e 1st para.
>.<

i'm not even tis zealous when collectin e darkhunter/blackdagger series
hope i'm not goin overboard >.<
woohoo~
mayb wed goin XP
see how 1st..
haiz..
花钱如水
*shake head*
>.<

lalala~
miss ya~

i got tis from may like..
on e 7 oct??
LOL

十句值得深思的话~
第一句：没有一百分的另一半，只有五十分的两个人。
第二句：付出真心才会得到真心，却也可能伤得彻底，保持距离就能保付自己， 却也注定永远寂寞。
第三句：通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人才是真正爱惜你的人。
第四句：有时候不是对方不在乎你。。。而是你把对方看得太重。
第五句：冷漠，有时候并不是无情， 只是一种避免被伤害的工具。
第六句：如果我们之间有100步的距离，你只要跨出第一步，我就会朝你的方向走其余的99步。
第七句：为你的难过而快乐的是敌人，为你的快乐而快乐的是朋友，为你的难过而难过的就是那些该放进心里的人。
第八句：就算是believe, 中间也藏了一个lie。
第九句：真正的好朋友并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题，而是在一起，就算不说话也不会感到很尴尬而快乐的感觉。
第十句：朋友。。就是被你看透了还能被你喜欢和被你接受的人才算是“好朋友”。

ps. while typin tis out, juz realise my chi realli cmi lor >.<

until e next time~