firstly i have 2 say thank you 2 lao da ^^ [i love dat cd XD] he'z veri de sweet i tell u hehez~ lao da rox 4EVA >.<
then i have 2 congrats those who get their wishes n get in2 e jc they wan. nw is 2 hope dat e sku like them enough dat they would be there 4 a couple of yrz. XP

did i say i've find a job? itz at great world city n abt selin wooden toys. itz kinda cool over there. stressfree, e ppl there iz gd. n e thing iz-e customerz there iz more polite than e 1 at mac. T.T they actually say thank you 2 u, they smile 2 acknowledge u. although iz not all lah, but enough dat i can appreciate lor. it realli iz diff. de.
mayb iz e culture bah?but u see huh, it takes 2 hands 2 clap. so if the custumer are more considerate, mayb e service in s'pore would improve more. but e thing iz dat e customer can be spiteful n anyhow mess up e thing, e ppl workin there still have 2 smile at them n pretend nth big iz happenin.do u see those workin at those shop sellin clothes de hor, are always foldin e clothes. especially when there iz a sale. coz lah, coz u juz wanna look mah, but u can always try 2 fold it back to wat it originally look like. u can say dat if u dun leave like dat, then wat thingz they got left 2 do??well, they could have 2 stock-take, sweep e floor, waitin to go 4 lunch once e ppl leve e store, etc. well, i realli dunno as i have nv work in a shop like dat b4. but do u realli think abt it?? [all e above are juz my pt of viewz..]

tml goin 2 watch 'DeathNote'!!! alone...lol. some ppl were like "wat??alone??e onli thing i went alone iz once." [jade..] 4 mi, well, as long as i like e show, itz all right bah. itz not like i'll die like dat. but when i watch a movie alone, i can see it at my own time, own date. n also, i dun have 2 meet up wif my freanz. see? all e reasonz suit mi. althought iz cannot share e movie after e show, i can always go back home n tell mi sis de mah.. or i juz leave it as a memory lah..

been "hook" on2 "Get Backers". Ginji iz soooooo shuai lor..n cute when he change to e miniature version >.< Ban no need 2 say liao lor. damn cool de lor..Shido ok lah..not my type but still acceptable XP then hor jade purchase e dvd setz on9 lor. [AHHHH!!!] someday, i gonna borrow it from her. been meanin 2 buy e comic set, but itz not finish yet, n if i realli buy ir, mom gonna nag again.. lol.

update next time. gonna play *.~

i know itz been long. but hey, 1st got my O' lvl, then my monitor break down on mi ,finally, my laziness 2 update XP
find guilty hehe~

e result should be ok bah. i have confident. but it realli doesnt matter as im not e 1 markin it. so~ should be enough so dat i can get into e course i wan. realli hope dat it happen. >.< but is all last min study de..at e beginnin is say muz start nw, muz start nw, but dun have e motivation. so..everything last min lah..sinec im aimin 4 poly, i dun have 2 worry abt registratin on9 4 dunno wat, worri abt e 1st 3 mth. so can spend my time findin other jobs n spend my time playin until next yr *evil laughter*

is got find 1 lah. telemarketer-call ppl house n ask them 2 buy stuffz lor..totally sianz~ u know how ppl are "no, no, not interested" "i already got it" some juz cut e line w/o mi sayin anything [rude T.T] but still, there are some nice ppl around [thank god 4 dat ^^] they're f*eakin POLITE! e pay 4 dat job is good, but wif e hr im workin, itz not realli much at e end of e day ($6 per hr, onli workin 3 hr/day). n i also have 2 deduct away my transport fees? like $1. see? things would be diff. if i work longer hr lah..anyway i quit le lah..

so nw iz findin another 1 lor..got 2 interviews tml [mi sian liao..] but have 2 try n see wat e outcome would be. i cant predict e future anyway..e prob iz dat im workin mac until 2pm, n e 1st interview iz at 1pm in great world city. [spilt myself into 2..lol] still, im lookin 4 thsoe kind of office job. dajmn jealous of yuan shi lor..find e data entry job >.< but dunno if popular still hirin or not hor, also interested in there also.. XP

recently been x-stitchin. itz a pic of winnie e pooh n his friends-tigger, piglet n eeyore. they are each in a "frame" of their own. juz e color can give mi a headache already T.T i expect e result would be worth it XD cant wait till dat time ^^

got a guy confess to mi. ya, i know hard is 2 believe hor. i almost had a heartattack myself.i dun realli know him well, n i have seen him less than a week or so. we rarely talk n hardly had a chance to get to know each other well. so u can understand dat i dun realli believe. i told jade dat he say dat if he like mi coz he felt confortable talkin 2 mi, jade replied dat she nv realised dat she like a lot of ppl as she felt confortable tokin 2 lotta ppl. n she has known mi longer than he does! lol still, freanz 1st. then see how things goes..

update next time..gotta go play game hehe~

bear washin!!!

was suppose to be foldin e clothes THEN physic. n maybe even bio.
but was distracted by my bear. u know?e one hangin on my hp. [e thing iz, i'm in e bedroom while e phone iz in e kitchen.juz show how close we are *wink*]
*ahem* ok. so e bear was dirty. WAS. XP i have not been takin good care of him..guilty as charged. while..e bear was use 4 cleanin e phone, as per instruction when i brought it. *shrug*
he was scrubbed. i try to be as gently as i can. i realli try. luckily, he was make of sturdier stuff..erm..material, so no part came off. neither did e dirty patch.. T.T
so..he had a bath. [a more civilized way sayin it *oppz*] in water with powder dat was used 4 washin clothez. turned out 2 be more useful than my scrubbin juz nw. but imagine : mouth filled wif soapy water, unable to cry out 4 help, to wad to e surface of e water 2 even breathe in a mouth-full of air. air that can e life. [it sound so drama..=P]
under e runnin tap, he was clean n squeezed out of any possible remainin soap water. hopfully, all iz remove. BUT. he iz clean nw. hurray!! '\^^/'
to be able to accompany mi out tml, he was clipped onto e fan. those wif e cover n move from side to side de. hope he iz not gettin dizzy. but im not realli sure if e wind iz reachin him or not lor..can onli pray n hope. XP
wonder if he iz goin 2 be e same again??

i know..i know..it'z been a long time. XP been busy n lazy. >.< typically mi. haha~ ^^
kinda finish all e prelim pratical today. wohoo~ nw iz to study 4 e theory le bah..faintin juz thinkin abt it.. T.T hope i can do it bah [??]

kinda lost hope in him..wat does he mean by wantin an underground de??not lettin everybidy know when e whole store know?? T.T he ask nth, he say naugh..hate dat..xiao siong iz correct bah..i have 2 start payin more attention. mayb even have 2 stay away from him??haiz..it really suck.. TT

thankz izzat!! lala~ i really did enjoy dat day bah..i "learn" new thingz [thing i should have known =P]
thankz 4 bein patient. i know i'm a slow learner >.< anyway, thankz 4 takin out ur time 2 help mi ^^ see?i'm updatin nw hor~ =P

finally get dat piercin i wan!! yeah~ not gonna say where. lalala~ *wink* it'z ok 4 e first week. but mayb iz coz i eat peanut [??] then got little bit infection. nw very very de pain >.< no like, no like. *sniffz* but since it'z wat i wan, i have to go through it. till it'z better. jiayou!!
it'z like i onli ask my mom,"can i get another piercin??e last 1??" on e night AFTER i've got it. lol. =X hehe~

lately, been havin somethin 4 butterfly. it'z juz..there..juz suddenly lor..lookie my nick, i didn't plan it. juz felt dat it sound right. n e pic. iz juz coincidence. thingz juz happen ^^ but butterfly are really beautiful. n also symetrical. how perfect can it be?? =D

been hooked onto e series by R.D.Robb [hope i get e spellin correct.. XP] it iz abt crime [mostly murder..] n eve, e main character, findin justice 4 e victimz. mayb wat i like iz e fast pace of e whole story, or it could be e sharp wit of eve bah?? i can only say i'm realli stuck on it. =D in some of e bookz, there'z some twist [emphasis "some"] while in 1, we, e reader, know who'z e killerz. but it'z how eve went abt findin evidence n suspectz dat'z fascinatin. mayb i'm e onli 1 who think so?? oh ya, e series iz feature in a future. kinda like 2050 something?? [i dun pay much attention 2 e date..] so when i first pick up 1 to read, i'm like tryin 2 decipher e whole list of words dat'z unseen. like LC, creditz, etc..

well..i have a hubby. =X no lah..iz girl lai de..nicole [new de..^^] i'm have a bad day mah..then when i get 2 store, face all black black de. then she suddenly joke abt she takin responsible 4 our child n start callin mi "lao po", i'm like, "hey, i dun mind wat..then she also not bad as a frean." tada~ new couple in store.
oh ya, u know??jack got galfrean liao. but it kinda cost him his best freanz. his frean like her, but she like jack. when jack know, he go ask her directly. so he say that btw him n his frean, e most iz say "hi" b4 movin on. damn sad.. ='( they are like childhood freanz lor..haiz.. but as long as they're happy..it'z good bah [??]

think i'll stop here le bah. ^^ until next time~

i know, i know..been a long time since i've update. paiseh >.<
juz cant find e time n e energy to do it XP

prelim'z on it'z way. [i'm freakin gonna die n go..somewhere..] kinda like revision not started yet [guilty as charged..], n there'z like gonna be pratical mock xam [OMG!! O.O] but still, kinda livin my life as if the o iz not comin up. [how could i??how could i??] kinda high nw =P

been havin a dream. in it, i was runnin 'n hidin. pratically. mostly wif some1 or a dog [??]. it was like not scary dat kind, but those kind as if runnin 4 one'z life bah..but e dream kinda cool.there'z dragonz, hidin in a very posh place, foldin n hidin a blazer in a piano [??]. oK, fine..it'z weird. but to say e true : i'm relieve. i've not been havin dream 4 too long a time.or mayb i have, but i can't rmb bah..

been meanin 2 save up money 4 stuffz : hp [minez startin 2 get fautly..], a mp3 [purely want.. XP] n a laptop [?? if i've further schoolin..lala~]. n well, u know mi. still savin..it'z gonna take mi yearz. lol. but i gonna do it!! juz 2 proof myself. lala~ gotta start controllin myself. gambette!

i've changed my glasses!finally~ haha~ ya, it'z like i do it in malaysia [dun ask why..] n i fork out 4 it. [achievement sense >.<] it's ok lah. brown n half frame. ^^ but ah lun say i have 2 control my intake of food [simple word, deep meanin..] thankz lot. i will!! well, a gal gotta look gd. =D

so many gd movie 2 watch recently. "dragon tiger gate" [literally translate hor..] n e fox 1. also got e tokyo drift also. but dunno if nice or not..might 2 watchin 2 fox alone if realli no 1 wanna go lor. plus, i haven ask yet. hehe~ ya, so i've got somethin on 4 tue le bah ^^ happy happy day~

update next time. cyaz~

gettin all confused..juz thought i have let him go in my heart. but e truth iz : he z still in my mind..haiz..nw there z another guy : jack. wat z wif all e confession??? wth! it z like..juz dayz after i got over "him" then jack pop up n start 2 distract mi.. T.T i like him fine..but mayb more as a freanz bah..but wat z wif all e jealously?? im startin 2 hate myself le. all those thoughtz. all those emotion. itz creatin disturbance 2 my whole system..then i heard from some1 dat "he" like mi [i still dun understand his msg 2 some1 else..] hope seep back in2 mi..
im such a stupid fool, n i sound despo, dun i??haiz..J. and J. say wait..n choose e 1 dat dotes on mi e most..wth!! i hate tis! dunno wat 2 think anymore lah..then jack got in2 accident.haiz..really hope he get well soon..

anyway, today go orchard~woohooo~but got spend a lot..mostly on clothin. XP juz seein myself in those cloth juz make mi all determine to lost unwanted fats. :-( finally admit im fat lah..i know dat 4 a long time le, juz dat i do nth abt it..so nw, i cant realli fit in2 anythin. cant really wear some beautiful shirt or skirt..no like, no like. so muz lose weightz. hehe~ ^^

i got realli sucky result 4 midyr..u know hor, my klazz onli got 37 ppl mah..ya, im e last in klazz..sad 2 admit..no face 2 show my parentz e result slip. but my sis also not better than mi lah..also in e last 3 position..lalala~~

next time when im free again, then i come back update. haha~ cyaz~

juz finish e book "e high lord" felt a vague unsatistified[?]...mayb coz i have onli read e last book of e trilogy? or coz e hero die?? [he damn cool lor~] haiz..mayb T.T but i like e story..suck mi in although i dunno who all those character are.. nice. good plot. a nice break from all those romance de bah..haha~
lately been feelin a bit down bah..coz he no longer msg mi nor reply 2 mine msg [although i onli snet him 1 lah..but it meanz a lot..his silence..] hate it when something unexpected pop up..nw im not sure of his feelin anymore..hate it!! alwayz not sure wat 2 sae 2 him whenever we are workin bah..coz like..he z e silence type lor..crazy some more..but onli around his buddy..haiz..he feels so outta reach suddenly...mizzin him already lor..
xam also comin round e corner. on wed. eng n ss. can die le bah..coz ss haven read sec 4 de chp yet.sianz~but at least i got study sec3 de mah..haha~zhenling! has no worry! XP

kinda blank out of wat to write. mayb next time bah ^^

my fault..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI WEN!!
paiseh..Gone 2 give u a belated present.. ><
kinda offended shaun [vent out my anger at him..not onli him lah hor..] feelin guilty, dun even dare 2 face him in the face lor..tis could b end of a friendship..mayb?? juz hatin myself myself 4 it..4 wat i have done..coz he dun realli deserved it dat day..haiz...
u should hear wat zhenling say lor..20 dayz 2 midyr. n she iz "naggin" at mi 2 study le..yes, mdm! but she overstress le bah..she still have her track de competition 2 worry abt n her ankle!! jiay0U~ \^0^/
broke. juz 1 word 2 describe my financial nw..have 2 save up 4 a trip 2 the theater wif didi [ice'z age 2 ><] , a new haircut. dat z abt it lah..dunno will overindulge or not lor..n spend on thingz i shoudnt..
mi wanna cut like yuna de hairstyle..but coz will have mu own style de lah..not long not short..but dun realli know how 2 phrase it 2 e cutter..then also dunno where 2 go n cut also lor..im biased towards malaysian cutter..felt dat they are somehow better...juz mi lah hor...mayb go yilian auntie de house lor..or at woodlands pt there de..juz a hair, but have 2 go through sooo much trouble..

update next time~ cyaz ^^

~concert over~

concert over liao~n...it z a success!!! wohoo~ they even request 4 encore lor >< but i know it could b nth bah..
then we have our "relaxation" camp or something like dat..u know wat i hear most from tis camp?? "chi"=eat.. lol "after we play tis...blab blab...then we eat at blab blab..." haha~ but it z fun lah..playin gamez, sleepin..literally slackin off..finally Oo [lol] iz like mi play volleyball 4 like 2 to 3 hrs. then i think play until sunburn..coz my hand got tanned liao..then e hand beri bruised lor..felt painful.. *ouch*
let mi say it again..in case some ppl miss it out : i DUN like brandon. u get dat, kumar?? d820
oh ya, xh, jas, sam. u all should know mi de lor..my crush come by everynow and often..n it often die out by itself..[kinda like a star..lol] so u needed worry abt mi unless im gettin serious abt it n start askin qns abt dat guy..[which like..almost nv happen b4...]ok lah..got a few cases lah..but i know guyz wouldnt think of mi as their gf de lah..dat 1 iz clear from my view.i know it myself de hor..
sometimez juz dunno wat 2 do bah..nw iz gettin confused over matterz of my heartz..u can juz ask sam lor..my head feel like xplodin..to which he replied : not a gd idea, we onli have 1 head..yaya..hatin n confusin myself more n more..sianz~
special sentence for today n mayb for e rest of my life..
inFatuatiOn iz liKe a garDen.if t3nded n careD fOr, it groWz iNto loVe.bUt if neglected or aBused, it diez.+O hAve eteRnal lOve iz to nv forget waT itz like tO live without it.. [adapted n a little amended from "night play" by sherrilyn kenyon-sorry abt copyin but tis phrase iz really gd ^^]

mi go sleep nw..nitez~ update next time [ when im free ;-) ]

lucky?

juz kinda feel dat he kinda have no feelinz 4 mi. no msg, no nth. it hurtz in a way...but im like so over him~hu he think he iz anyway??dare 2 treat mi tis way?? XP kor got sae "if kena cheated by a handsome 1, it z ok lah..if not, very wat de lor.." dat z his word. but i agree totally!! kor, u ROX! kor also say dat his msg iz like replyin 4 e sake of replyin...how unfeelin can dat b?? jerk~ nw iz more interested in other ppl. but still confused..damn. no straight ans..hate dat..

okok..dat z a guy i think iz quite cute de lor..kinda kool too. in our sku de lah. but prob iz:he likes 1 of my close friends bah..but iz it mi or wat??we kinda connect together?? ok, juz mi..haha~think 2 much le.
juz buy e book "e little prince" it z like so innocent, n cute lor..but hope i can understand wat z it talkin abt. coz it z from e author de p.o.v. lor..kinda chem to mi..
tml iz e "moVed" concert leh!!! xcited sia. in my way lah hor. hope i dun drag e otherz down lor..coz wo de xing kong iz not dat good yet..mi have 2 play zhonghu liao hor..then e shoe stink [no pun intented.. XP]. in dat it iz tight n it hurt my feet!! shaun say "no b nervous" how can not b. but nw ok lah..coz iz not like syf. but i realli dun wan it 2 b e failure. i realli dun hope 2 go home cryin..i have 2 jiayOu!! [kam-pa-te!!!]
ok, so mi bdae came n went. wat happened?? i went out alone on orchard. [u heard dat??alone neh..] but firstly, i have 2 say thankz 2 those who give mi e present. got:sam, huan, jas, sc, peiwen, zhenling, dez. they all got mi 2 bookz i wan ><>< oh~ ya hor, thank you shaun!! u let mi off co. ^^ without ur help, i wouldnt b able 2 celebrate myself le bah ^^ thankie. [not like dat u-know-who hor, hejing..hehe~*wink]

mi nw go sleep liao, have 2 "rest" 4 tml.. ^^ update next time~

last paper~

tml iz last paper. yeah~ finally. ^^ can relax a bit lah hor, coz iz onli bio mah...lotta memorize..which im not dat good at..haha~ [xiang si arh?? - can almost hear zhenling say dat..] thankz 4 sms-ing mi lor..iz concern in sum way bah..finally study somthing 4 2dae de test. geo n amath. otherz iz heck care liao lor..
been thinkin of the past bah [michelle say iz no use de, muz look 4ward...] then i realize, y tis like i wan nth 4 bdae de?? [im being a bit self-centered...] last yr i wan tigger...[ya, still lovin it. it z sOo cute ><] but tis yr mayb iz satisfied le bah..required nth much. but iz thinking of buying a skirt. lalala~ been thinkin of wearin 1 after mthz..sunburn until colour not change back yet..not fun de [pout..]
have been listenin 2 orange range de "natural". damn nice sia~ their music kinda cute lor..haha~ but i love track 11. *~asterisk. haha~ 1st openin of bleach. damn kool. [btw mi nw dl-ing bleach lor..take soO loOng..]
lately, feelin more like 2 myself le bah. crazy crazy de..then can sa jiao le~ at xh, then at jas, then at sam, then at peiwen, then at zhenling and at hejing. long time nv do dat le..hehe~ muz "fan si ta men".. "(^^)"
juz nw dunno wat happen hor, e whole net crush lor..cant open msn [finally can chat comp dun let mi T.T] then open yahoo also got prob. comp like always muz work against mi de lor..stupid comp...if iz mei mei then think will no have tis prob le bah.."pian xin" de comp.. XP


next time then i come back update, k?? nitez~

stupid thoughtz..

it z last night when i started havin suicide thoughtz bah..not dat serious, juz dat..wat z e use of livin, when u gonna die in e end of ur dunno how mani yrz?like any1 will miss mi like dat lor..mayb 4 a while bah..but im gone. from e surface of the earth and from the memory of ppl. they have their own life 2 attend 2 de lor..

darkness envelope mi
closin my supply of oxygen
shuttin down my feelinz from the otherz
as my feelinz get moody
my thoughtz turned negative.
there nth much on my mind
except death and destruction
to myself
and to otherz.
wat z e use of livin anyway??
u die in the end...

ok.datz stupid. i wrote tis down last night. when it z still fresh n when i can still rmb lah..[havin a bad memory iz not a good thingz.. T.T]
help them work 2dae.anything lah, at home also nth 2 do..sianz..onli like 3hrz onli.so help lor..juz know from kian heng. 3 of e indian guy like mi!! wat e...but he say rumorz onli lah..but e jack hor..dun wan say liao..keep saying "i like u", "u beri beautiful" lol. rofl..ask hanizah lor..cant stand him.. [goosebumpz..] but e other he say iz rumorz bah..realli hope so. coz i got some1 i like liao ><
n he z not even in s'pore as im updatin.. [pout..] juz knowin dat i cant c him 4 like dayz, is enough 2 make mi miserable le bah..
haiz~realli fall in deep in tis. been wantin 2 tell derrick de, but dunno wat 2 say. coz the environment iz like..soooo unsuitable..want 2 ask him 4 his opinion bah. he seemz 2 know more.[ermmm...mayb ask ah lun better..oppz =X ]
today iz got test chem. know no hope liao..dun even understand wat cher iz sayin, then thinkin of droppin it lor..wat z e use of keepin if i cant concentrate more on e otherz. think i phrase wrong.hmmm...iz like, i cant score well in tis subj, so wat abt mi droppin it n concentrated more on e other?? does it sound better?? hope so.. XP
things been poppin up. after common test, iz e concert. after dat think iz goin 2 concentrate so chinese so can score well in o'lvl. then think iz prelimz [??]. then iz e final thingie..no fun.. -.-"" thus,
muz play more!!! [weird logic..]no lah..iz playin hard when im able 2 . dat z wat i feel. if not i realli can die lor, all work no play make siqiao tired. nw i realli sound illogical..

i m realli gettin weird by e secondz..ok lah..i nw go sleep. update when i got somthing 2 share. ^^

finished wif the ss test le.can say iz ...no hope bah.haha~didnt even study 4 it.u say leh?? if can pass, i realli got nth 2 say liao lor.. tml z physics lor..hope i can pass wif e cher z teaching. dun even know what 2 think anymore, not in e mood 2 even look at the bookz. n who z fault it gonna b?? mine of coz.
juz read haidi z blog [think iz his bah..] not bad sia. no wonder iz higher mother tongue de ren. haha~ his usage of chinese iz profound. dat z i can say. ^^
samuel been screamin the word "despo" at mi 4 as long as i rmb. haha~ i think so myself, "thank" 2 him.. i mean iz like wat z wrong wif liking a guy who z iz like onli 20 something?? but zhenling iz right lor, in dat we dunno wat they are thinking of.. but 2 mi, i think they think abt e same thing..[n dat would b?? T.T]
tis realli showz how pathetic i am...[like who care like dat lor..]
have not been watching anime 4 a loooooong time liao..but juz listening 2 songs. OMG!! i juz rmb. the "trinity blood" series. i LOST it..[arrGH!!] pain sia.. ouch... >< n the closin song... beri beri painful nw...
ok..im hatin myself nw...[sniffz...] i should have burn it 2 a cd.. ahhhhh!!!!



sorri 4 e inconvience caused, but the writer iz currently havin a mental breakdown.
stay tuned 4 the next update [??]

thinkin of a guy..

comp iz repair liao..but a lot of thingz kena deleted bah.. :'( like my songz, then e pic. iz a lot of thing z lor..
got crush!! *ahem* hehe~
abt him: beri de shuai [2 mi ><] then ren beri de hao. do things dat are touching in my sense[??], ok, in my world. although iz a fewz yrz older than mi, but i dun mind [i nv did mind b4..]
wat i like abt him: COZ IZ HIM. ><
haha~i siaoz liao lah.. juz a little "bit" crazy over him..haha~
but still..i wonder who i am 2 him..juz a friend??or he juz lookz on mi as a sister??
okok, my heart'z all bare.laying here 4 him 2 step on. but i doubt dat he will find my bloggie unless i go crazy n tell him bah..
but..i got lotta doubt de lor...y mi??y not belinda??he closer 2 her mah..then also got lotta chio bu at e workin place..haiz..wat z left of brain will b gone if i continue 2 think of this..lol




today hor, jenny call mi blur1. lol..i go replace liqin le lah..hope iz not 4 long...no like being call blur de nah..then she also ask,"where ur bf huh?" since when do i have a bf dat i dun even know..but "hint hint": i got NO bf.need i repeat dat again??hope not..lol