Wednesday, February 22, 2006

stupid thoughtz..

it z last night when i started havin suicide thoughtz bah..not dat serious, juz dat..wat z e use of livin, when u gonna die in e end of ur dunno how mani yrz?like any1 will miss mi like dat lor..mayb 4 a while bah..but im gone. from e surface of the earth and from the memory of ppl. they have their own life 2 attend 2 de lor..

darkness envelope mi
closin my supply of oxygen
shuttin down my feelinz from the otherz
as my feelinz get moody
my thoughtz turned negative.
there nth much on my mind
except death and destruction
to myself
and to otherz.
wat z e use of livin anyway??
u die in the end...

ok.datz stupid. i wrote tis down last night. when it z still fresh n when i can still rmb lah..[havin a bad memory iz not a good thingz.. T.T]
help them work 2dae.anything lah, at home also nth 2 do..sianz..onli like 3hrz onli.so help lor..juz know from kian heng. 3 of e indian guy like mi!! wat e...but he say rumorz onli lah..but e jack hor..dun wan say liao..keep saying "i like u", "u beri beautiful" lol. rofl..ask hanizah lor..cant stand him.. [goosebumpz..] but e other he say iz rumorz bah..realli hope so. coz i got some1 i like liao ><
n he z not even in s'pore as im updatin.. [pout..] juz knowin dat i cant c him 4 like dayz, is enough 2 make mi miserable le bah..
haiz~realli fall in deep in tis. been wantin 2 tell derrick de, but dunno wat 2 say. coz the environment iz like..soooo unsuitable..want 2 ask him 4 his opinion bah. he seemz 2 know more.[ermmm...mayb ask ah lun better..oppz =X ]
today iz got test chem. know no hope liao..dun even understand wat cher iz sayin, then thinkin of droppin it lor..wat z e use of keepin if i cant concentrate more on e otherz. think i phrase wrong.hmmm...iz like, i cant score well in tis subj, so wat abt mi droppin it n concentrated more on e other?? does it sound better?? hope so.. XP
things been poppin up. after common test, iz e concert. after dat think iz goin 2 concentrate so chinese so can score well in o'lvl. then think iz prelimz [??]. then iz e final thingie..no fun.. -.-"" thus,
muz play more!!! [weird logic..]no lah..iz playin hard when im able 2 . dat z wat i feel. if not i realli can die lor, all work no play make siqiao tired. nw i realli sound illogical..

i m realli gettin weird by e secondz..ok lah..i nw go sleep. update when i got somthing 2 share. ^^

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