last paper~

tml iz last paper. yeah~ finally. ^^ can relax a bit lah hor, coz iz onli bio mah...lotta memorize..which im not dat good at..haha~ [xiang si arh?? - can almost hear zhenling say dat..] thankz 4 sms-ing mi lor..iz concern in sum way bah..finally study somthing 4 2dae de test. geo n amath. otherz iz heck care liao lor..
been thinkin of the past bah [michelle say iz no use de, muz look 4ward...] then i realize, y tis like i wan nth 4 bdae de?? [im being a bit self-centered...] last yr i wan tigger...[ya, still lovin it. it z sOo cute ><] but tis yr mayb iz satisfied le bah..required nth much. but iz thinking of buying a skirt. lalala~ been thinkin of wearin 1 after mthz..sunburn until colour not change back yet..not fun de [pout..]
have been listenin 2 orange range de "natural". damn nice sia~ their music kinda cute lor..haha~ but i love track 11. *~asterisk. haha~ 1st openin of bleach. damn kool. [btw mi nw dl-ing bleach lor..take soO loOng..]
lately, feelin more like 2 myself le bah. crazy crazy de..then can sa jiao le~ at xh, then at jas, then at sam, then at peiwen, then at zhenling and at hejing. long time nv do dat le..hehe~ muz "fan si ta men".. "(^^)"
juz nw dunno wat happen hor, e whole net crush lor..cant open msn [finally can chat comp dun let mi T.T] then open yahoo also got prob. comp like always muz work against mi de lor..stupid comp...if iz mei mei then think will no have tis prob le bah.."pian xin" de comp.. XP


next time then i come back update, k?? nitez~

stupid thoughtz..

it z last night when i started havin suicide thoughtz bah..not dat serious, juz dat..wat z e use of livin, when u gonna die in e end of ur dunno how mani yrz?like any1 will miss mi like dat lor..mayb 4 a while bah..but im gone. from e surface of the earth and from the memory of ppl. they have their own life 2 attend 2 de lor..

darkness envelope mi
closin my supply of oxygen
shuttin down my feelinz from the otherz
as my feelinz get moody
my thoughtz turned negative.
there nth much on my mind
except death and destruction
to myself
and to otherz.
wat z e use of livin anyway??
u die in the end...

ok.datz stupid. i wrote tis down last night. when it z still fresh n when i can still rmb lah..[havin a bad memory iz not a good thingz.. T.T]
help them work 2dae.anything lah, at home also nth 2 do..sianz..onli like 3hrz onli.so help lor..juz know from kian heng. 3 of e indian guy like mi!! wat e...but he say rumorz onli lah..but e jack hor..dun wan say liao..keep saying "i like u", "u beri beautiful" lol. rofl..ask hanizah lor..cant stand him.. [goosebumpz..] but e other he say iz rumorz bah..realli hope so. coz i got some1 i like liao ><
n he z not even in s'pore as im updatin.. [pout..] juz knowin dat i cant c him 4 like dayz, is enough 2 make mi miserable le bah..
haiz~realli fall in deep in tis. been wantin 2 tell derrick de, but dunno wat 2 say. coz the environment iz like..soooo unsuitable..want 2 ask him 4 his opinion bah. he seemz 2 know more.[ermmm...mayb ask ah lun better..oppz =X ]
today iz got test chem. know no hope liao..dun even understand wat cher iz sayin, then thinkin of droppin it lor..wat z e use of keepin if i cant concentrate more on e otherz. think i phrase wrong.hmmm...iz like, i cant score well in tis subj, so wat abt mi droppin it n concentrated more on e other?? does it sound better?? hope so.. XP
things been poppin up. after common test, iz e concert. after dat think iz goin 2 concentrate so chinese so can score well in o'lvl. then think iz prelimz [??]. then iz e final thingie..no fun.. -.-"" thus,
muz play more!!! [weird logic..]no lah..iz playin hard when im able 2 . dat z wat i feel. if not i realli can die lor, all work no play make siqiao tired. nw i realli sound illogical..

i m realli gettin weird by e secondz..ok lah..i nw go sleep. update when i got somthing 2 share. ^^

finished wif the ss test le.can say iz ...no hope bah.haha~didnt even study 4 it.u say leh?? if can pass, i realli got nth 2 say liao lor.. tml z physics lor..hope i can pass wif e cher z teaching. dun even know what 2 think anymore, not in e mood 2 even look at the bookz. n who z fault it gonna b?? mine of coz.
juz read haidi z blog [think iz his bah..] not bad sia. no wonder iz higher mother tongue de ren. haha~ his usage of chinese iz profound. dat z i can say. ^^
samuel been screamin the word "despo" at mi 4 as long as i rmb. haha~ i think so myself, "thank" 2 him.. i mean iz like wat z wrong wif liking a guy who z iz like onli 20 something?? but zhenling iz right lor, in dat we dunno wat they are thinking of.. but 2 mi, i think they think abt e same thing..[n dat would b?? T.T]
tis realli showz how pathetic i am...[like who care like dat lor..]
have not been watching anime 4 a loooooong time liao..but juz listening 2 songs. OMG!! i juz rmb. the "trinity blood" series. i LOST it..[arrGH!!] pain sia.. ouch... >< n the closin song... beri beri painful nw...
ok..im hatin myself nw...[sniffz...] i should have burn it 2 a cd.. ahhhhh!!!!



sorri 4 e inconvience caused, but the writer iz currently havin a mental breakdown.
stay tuned 4 the next update [??]

thinkin of a guy..

comp iz repair liao..but a lot of thingz kena deleted bah.. :'( like my songz, then e pic. iz a lot of thing z lor..
got crush!! *ahem* hehe~
abt him: beri de shuai [2 mi ><] then ren beri de hao. do things dat are touching in my sense[??], ok, in my world. although iz a fewz yrz older than mi, but i dun mind [i nv did mind b4..]
wat i like abt him: COZ IZ HIM. ><
haha~i siaoz liao lah.. juz a little "bit" crazy over him..haha~
but still..i wonder who i am 2 him..juz a friend??or he juz lookz on mi as a sister??
okok, my heart'z all bare.laying here 4 him 2 step on. but i doubt dat he will find my bloggie unless i go crazy n tell him bah..
but..i got lotta doubt de lor...y mi??y not belinda??he closer 2 her mah..then also got lotta chio bu at e workin place..haiz..wat z left of brain will b gone if i continue 2 think of this..lol




today hor, jenny call mi blur1. lol..i go replace liqin le lah..hope iz not 4 long...no like being call blur de nah..then she also ask,"where ur bf huh?" since when do i have a bf dat i dun even know..but "hint hint": i got NO bf.need i repeat dat again??hope not..lol