Thursday, May 27, 2010

the grad ceremony was awesome!! not! *frown*
it was exactly what i have expected - kind of boring coz there are simply just too many people from other courses though all are under engineering. and listening to all those achievement those gold medalist have, only 1 word came to my mind - sick *shake head*
no offence to clement =x
it's just that, their time management is really good - seeing that they also achieve gold in their CCA, and also some outside school's activties and still manage to score like 30 plus distinctions? zhai *clap hand*
but i think there's one thing that i can be sure of (if i'm not wrong) is that they don't have to work. it's just my speculation, do correct me if i'm wrong =)

though it was boring during the whole waiting-to-go-on-stage and also the collection of the cert, it was like SO much fun during the photographing session!! muahaha~
we even have a mascot - the grad bear (it costs 22$ and it's like only 15cm??!!) courtesy of HuiTing *ahem*
everybody, especially the girls, are fighting to take picture with it *laugh*
everybody manage to take picture with everybody. and despite having a catering, i only tried their green apple salad. delicious~

after which we cab down to Liang Court. we have a total of 11 people, and it was quite late by the time we've finish with whatever we're doing - phototaking and returing of attire (can get back 30$ hor..) the original plan was to go ktv, around 200+$ and 4hrs. which would means singing until 12mn.
and it's impossible, since there are still some people who still need to report to work the next day *hand raise!* so we went to a pub instead~!
a total eye opener. music was loud, our area are cosy, and everybody has fun! hopefully >.<>.< i would rather use that amount to have a nice dinner with dear =x hehe~

i'm falling in love with my current company. LOL. it's totally in sync with my save-the-earth thingie, and we are having this Eat With Family Day (or something). meaning we are going home 1 hr earlier. i just pray i can get a seat xP

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

found this on the web - Infinity
it's actually from the Prologue of Nick Gautier's first book.
initially, i though he was just a sidekick-turn-enemy from the series Dark-Hunter, but turns out he has secret that us, the readers, doesn't know about yet.
something i have thinking about, and i felt that this actually answer my answer. sort of..

here it goes -

Freewill.

Some have called it the greatest gift bestowed on humanity. It is our ability to control what happens to us and exactly how it happens. We are the masters of our fate and no one can foist their will on us unless we allow it.

Others say freewill is a crap myth. We have a preordained destiny and no matter what we do or how hard we fight it, life will happen to us exactly as it’s meant to happen. We are only pawns to a higher power that our meager human brains can’t even begin to understand or comprehend.
My best bud, Acheron, once explained it to me like this. Destiny is a freight train rolling along on a set course that only the conductor knows. When we get to the railroad crossing in our car, we can choose to stop and wait for the train to pass us by, or try to pull out in front of it and beat that bad boy across.

That choice is our freewill.

If we choose to rush ahead, the car we’re in might stall on the tracks. We can then choose to try and start the car or wait for the train to plow into us. Or we can get out to run and fight the destiny of the train slamming into us and killing us where we stand. By choosing to run, our foot could get caught in the tracks or we could slip and fall.

We could even say to ourselves, “there’s no way I’m dumb enough to fight the train” and hang back to safely wait. Then the next thing we know, a truck rams us from behind, throwing us straight into the train’s path.

If it is our destiny to be hit by the train, we will be hit by the train. The only thing we can change is how the train turns us into hamburger.

(end)

this is only a small part from the web site. but yes, i think it answers my question. and speaking about the series, it makes me realise that i have not been catching up on it >.< kinda lost touch to it. the author churns out the book too fast and also i felt that the quality is compromised. hopefully, it's not the case for upcoming book. so that i can complete the whole series =)
having gap in the series is like just so wrong. it's as if i'm breaking some kind of law in the universe *shudder*

thinking of cutting my hair short after this job is over. not something like what i had the other time!! *fume* like..just more of a shoulder length. and i don't think bangs suit me, so i have to strike it off my list. maybe those emo thingie fringe? i have no idea what they call it, but it seems kind of cool xP guess i'll have to research on it den =D

does anybody know how to write an appeal letter of 50 meagre words?! that's like the requirement for ntu. bloody hell! one person in some forum said something akin to - like giving chance, but with the 50 words limit, totally no hope.. to which i agree with. unless you're good with words, then it'll be an effortless task.
suddenly feels that uni life seems so far from me T.T wish that i tried a bit harder in the past, then i might not have this problem now. but it's too late for hindsight *shake head*

grad ceremony tml. initially have no thoughts of going, but change my mind. i mean, come on, it's the chance of a lifetime that i'm putting on the robe and taking photos with my friends. after which, all of us would have seperate path to take.
so tml will be quite an eventful day. coz after which we are going somewhere to eat. hopefully cheap =x i have already predicted that it's going to be a fun day tml, no including the waiting time in the hall >.<

Monday, May 24, 2010

totally got the bb cream, complete with the pact. not sure whether to be happy or not, since another hugh part of my savings gone (like per usual *eye rolling*). and since month end's nearing, i would have to control my spending until my next income arrives. which is going to be around 2 weeks later? *sigh* anyway, just buy and try first lor (as per 'drew's advice..) if it's not good (which i doubt), then maybe never again? xP

haha~ well, tried it on ytd when i get back home. it's just like a liquid foundation, but i think i have to pat it in, not rub like what i did this morning. today's session didnt really cover my pores well, thou i still think they're too big anyway =( then since i'm already trying it out, i dig out my fake eyelashes and 'cop' some eye shadow from my sis, and also her eye liner brush *evil laughter* as always, i have trouble putting the eyelashes in place -
+ lack of practise
+ i'm not wearing glasses T.T
den my mom is sitting beside me (i'm doing it in the kitchen btw), talking about contact lens, about my cousin having an eye infection from it. then i rmb telling her i need a diff type coz my astigmatism is on a higher degree side. and at the same time, i also have light degree of myopia. being me sucks when i would have to spend more if i wanted to get contact lens T.T

i got to admit, my eyes look bigger with the lashes on. muahahah~ (thou i cant fight with my sis, ever. *stare*) haha~
had a fun day dolling up, thou nobody to show it off too xP

went to ikea too, tampines outlet. it's like so near my area, with a direct bus from the interchange. hmmm.. reach there in less then 45mins? and i think the fare is around 1.6$, if the website didnt lie to me. which is definitely cheaper and faster compare to taking the mrt then changing bus..if that's the case, i would rather go to the queenstown outlet.

got the boxes i wanted!! dear dear xin ku le, coz he accompany me all the way there and even helped me looked around for the ideal box i had in mind. we spend around 2hrs inside? =x
gotten what i wanted and pine over those closets and bookshelves that i never had in my life xP our lunch consists of sharing 3 hotdogs and 1 soft drink. and a desert of brownie x)
i could say that it was a cheap but full meal *grin* haha~ we definitely had fun ytd xD

after clearing out the black cabinet which stands in the corner of our room, i found out that there's actually lots of space for other things. so i have this idea to just shift some boxes over and free up one compartment for me to hold my comestic/beauty/jewellery. but before i can do that, i have to organize all the papers/files and books. hence the reason for buying the boxes.
oh ya, what did your guys did with all the old lecture notes now that we have graduated?

unwanted things are throw away, clutter are cleared. what's left is for me to find just one (if he's lucky, two) compartment for my bro.
my bro is a sad case actually.
you know those tall cabinet that's seperated into 5 compartments? he only occupied 3 of them for his clothes. his school stuffs are placed in dad's closet (my dad used that closet for hanging his ironed clothes, so there's at lot of empty spaces at the side). i think that empty spaces are seperated into 4? and he only has access to 2 of them. i guess this is the disadvantage of coming so late into our family. and you can also blame his eldest sister for buying too much books *guilty*
so i promised him ytd night that i'll find one compartment for him, just so that he has a space to call his own in our room bah...and if there's still not enough space, i'm thinking of just getting a big box for him. but finding space for it is another diff idea i have to play around with. room sharing just sucks *sniff*

since month end is round the corner, so is my period with the company in 3 weeks times. how fast time flies *shake head* thou my supervisor speaks of extending my period of working with them, i'll guess i can sit back and see how it goes. thou i hope it will happen =x

Friday, May 21, 2010

the sole of my heels fall out T.T not one pair, it's two! *argh* during my attachment, the one i'm wearing lasted me for 6 months and going!! *argh* it was just a few days ago when it happen. and just so nice that morning i was just thinking and berating to myself that i have to keep my straying eyes off the shoes since i bought two pairs a few weeks back. and to my chagrin, e sole on my left shoe fall out! bloody hell!! *shook fist at the shoes*
of course i got a new pair, heels, the spoilt one is the ballerina flats type =( so nw, i'm wearing the 6 months plus ballerina flats. hopefully it wouldnt die on me like the other two >.<

hopefully i'm not working on sun, so that i can go ikea *evil laughter* just love going window shopping and if i can get one or two boxes to hold my stuff, all the more better =D since until today, there's no news from my supervisor from the other job, i'm gonna assume that i will be getting on my way on sun le. woohoo~

sleep has been disturbed by dreams lately. dreams i know are insignificant, something to do with everyday life, but after waking up, i still feel like i'm a victim of a stampede despite having almost 8 hrs of sleep. it just sucks..
haven been sleeping till later den 12 for the past 2 weeks since i have been workin everyday. sincerely hope the chance is coming soon xP

Thursday, May 20, 2010

updated~

What would be the most xin tong thing you would felt about if there's a fire in your house? (touchwood, i know)

for me, it's my books collection >.< guess it's something where i didnt lose my interest in and which lasted until nw. think it's influence from my mom, seeing that she has tons of chinese novels in her cabinet. (why i dont have one arh??!! *stare*) ok, anyway. i think i'll defintely try to rush back in and maybe salvage whatever i can. which is totally impossible, as people will defintely try to hold me back. another thing is that, it's like the amount invested in *shrug* 1 book is not cheap hor, at least $18, thou some might be cheaper coz i could have got it on sale =D given my salary i have then, books are like a once every 2 months things? not to forget i'm chasing comic at that time too =( not just one series hor *sniff* and there are also some books which i ordered online, and i dont think i can ever find them in sg bookstore. maybe kino lah, but ya, they dont have everythin also...
but of course the first thing i would worry about would be the well-fare of my family member. but after knowing everyone is safe, all the heart-ache would pour in *sob* hopefully it's something that aint gonna happen. ever.

i was rejected from both nus and ntu *sigh* thinking of appealing to try and see how bah. as Eric (my school's TSO) said, there will always be some people like me trying for 2 or more schools. and if they are better than me, of course one of their choices will accept them. once that happens, i might have a chance. a very heavy emphasis on might. the worse senerio would be my last option, getting into e private u. either mdis (?) or sim *sigh* just kinda seem that i have no 'yuan' with accounting. first in poly, nw this *shake head*
life jus suck when it's not going my way *pout*

been a long time since i have meet up wif everyone except my dear. wonder how's e rest doin? and by that, i mean everyone. since i have started workin (it's seems like forever already), lesser and lesser time are dedicated to my friends. and my parents are not helping matters too, given the meager allowance i got every month. please lor, i have to pay for my bill that time also de hor. by the time i've eaten by lunch for the whole week, i would have negative saving (if i'm not workin..) and the allowance in poly? not much of a diff. in the end, the money just seem to be somethin extra i can use T.T not something i can survive on.
i dunno whether i'm lucky coz i'm workin dat time, or i'm suay coz when my mom has the concept that since i'm workin, she doesnt need to give me much. and she still expect me to give her some money every month (which i refuse to do so, and act blur everythin she mentioned it) *sigh* but anythin i can agree is that she doesnt realli know how much it takes to eat outside *shake head* it's not the same as in the past, where $0.50 (or even lesser) can get you a big bowl of something..cant realli blame her since she have work in the society before >.<
p.s. nw i got try giving her some per month, not to say dun have...

had a new temp admin job, thanks to serene's friend for introducing it to me. but got the feeling i kena cut veg head. coz i went through her agency, thus part of my salary would be deducted for their commision. heard from jh that it's like 50% of his total pay. so example if he's workin for $2/hr, the agent would be deducting $2 from each hr he's workin (if anyone get what i'm trying to say..). naturally i'm shock when i heard that, it's like.. O_O WTF!!! althou to say what i'm having is also kinda high nw (compared to the market rate, 5.5/hr if i'm not wrong), but i dun mind getting more =x
the staffs here are friendly so it's a relieve. and my company is kinda small, only having around 20 ppl workin on this level? and i get to know somethin, there're 2 NP students here!! woohoo~ *dance* e guy is the previous intern, but extend until he needs to go in for NS. the other girl is year 2010 1st intake for interns. damn cool lah, i tell you. at least got ppl around my age *beam*
and since i'm working at raffles place, there's quite a lot of things to eat around my area. from amoy street to lao pa sa, there's even the golden bridge and golden shoe. thou the golden shoe is kinda far. but ya, not scare nth to eat or too expensive. unlike my attachment where we have to take the shuttle bus out or walk to abc foodcourt >.< unless got transportation lah (which is rare), den different matter liao =x

been trying to take better care of my face, which means using sun screen, since i'm not as young anymore. and thinking of using bb cream. have you all research abt it? it just seem to be the god of all facial product out there, except for makeup remover in my opinion, coz you have to use that to remove the cream whenever you're washing your face at night *laugh*
been wondering whether it's necessary for me to add it in my regime, and beside that, whether i'll continue using it until the whole tube is finish is another question *eye roll* so ya, still debating about it. and my mom is like, "up to you lor, if you want then you might think of getting this *point to My Paper 19/5 article*. Not bad, got oil control." *sigh*
still weighting the pros and cons of it. plus, i think ebay and some online auction from yahoo is selling the product cheaper then what you would actually get from watson/guardian (at least for what i'm thinking of getting..) must ponder more on this issue.
yes, the product is great, i might even say fabulous, looking at the way every girls and every review is raving over it. the problem is just me - whether i have the determination to use finish the whole bloody tube and not waste my money by stopping after a while *argh*
sometimes i just loath this part of personality of mine =(